jpeg jellyfish shot on a bridge-camera in bad lighting three years ago and brought to you by a procrastinating dumbass going through old photos instead of reading articles in the library.
the sun is shining i'm feeling motivated i have a pile of books to read and assignments to plan and seminars to prepare for and clothes to put on the washing line and oh, what am i doing? that's right, ART/ #artbyhawwa
a lesson i learnt from a friend/something i was reminded of recently: your focus in life is what makes or breaks you - your foundation always needs to be God, & you should never place your worth in other people or things because they aren't secure, because the only truly secure aspect of your life is Him. so then it's not really about the challenges you face, or the problems you have to deal with. because yes, they're overwhelming but you always have to refocus. i mean, everyone always says it's the way you react to a situation that tells you the most about yourself. all the memes and instagram quote posts tell you that too. but sometimes you forget. sometimes you see and hear it so often you're just numb to it. and maybe this whole caption is ironic because i'm just one more person who's telling you. but i'm going to say it anyway because what my friend said really meant something to me, so maybe it will mean something to you too. or maybe the reminder is only significant if you're searching for it anyway, when your heart is feeling a little empty and you're trying to find a way to fill it. and if that's the case then i guess that's a lesson too. to treat your soul how you treat your stomach. if you're hungry you go and find something to eat right? so do the same for your heart & for your soul. / @ sulfan. you were in NQ, now you're on a random girl's instagram. 📸: @aishah.k
me: i need to stop making such depressing art also me: hmm what kind of mood goes with a random doodle of a boat on the sea? i know - LONELINESS! SADNESS! ISOLATION! / #artbyhawwa
sometimes your heart feels heavy (for specific reasons, or just - because? you can't explain. or maybe it's both) & you can't bring yourself to leave the house or do anything or move from your bed or study. you don't even want to procrastinate. or do art. or play basketball. or do whatever it is that usually makes you happy. & on those days when you stare blankly in front of you & isolate yourself - be grateful. / grateful? okay so let me explain: i find that when i am most alone, i am even more aware of the people that usually fill my life. my friends literally (& i mean literally - fairylights and glow-in-the-dark stars & moon lamps and smiles) bathe my life in light. so i might be the dark shadow in the light on off-days, but i still appreciate their presence. i'm grateful for the things that still hover around me even when i'm being, for lack of a better expression, a bit bleugh || lili sent me a package of positive vibes & i don't think i've smiled so hard opening (unexpected) post in months.
all those layers of silence upon silence - #hawwajournals
miley cyrus said there's always gonna be another mountain, & i'm always gonna wanna make it move & that's straight facts / but what about the mountains you can't even look at. the mountains you can't even step foot on because you have no energy. the mountains that could be nothing compared to the ones you have already conquered, but right at this moment you just really can't. what then. #artbyhawwa