@bush.albert and I celebrated 12 YEARS together yesterday. Where does the time go? Here’s an old pic of us living in our art house in south Atlanta around 2015. I was working in education at an art museum and spent my free time going to yoga classes at LA Fitness and painting the inside and outside of our house. This is the home where our cat, David Blaine, chose to join our family. We were so damn poor and we lived mostly on microwave meals. Crazy how much life can change in just a few years, but TWELVE...
When I was in YTT @yogini_lena would give us intention cards before class and I do this with my students, too. Today I pulled the “I love life” card and it couldn’t be more true: sure, things aren’t perfect (are they ever, though?) but I can certainly feel appreciative for everything I have and even the things I don’t have. On the back of the card: “It is my birthright to live fully and freely. I give to life exactly what I want life to give to me. I am glad to be alive. I love life!” This is your birthright, too! I couldn’t stop staring at all of these perfect colors when they were in savasana.
Hari hari! ❤️ Blissed out in divine love, gratitude, and seva at #festivalofcolors ! 📸 by @miyeveronica
Hey IG I have something to say. I’m tired of seeing pictures of yoga poses in front of stuff with quotes underneath it. Most bodies shouldn’t do those poses anyway, and they create an illusion that yoga is inaccessible. What ever happened to focusing on what’s inside? I have been extremely humbled by my hip injury over the past six months. Recently I’ve been figuring out how I want to live my life and how I can best be of service to others. I’m exploring myself a little deeper. I’m learning more about yoga beyond asana. So here’s to living a life that’s adventurous and fulfilling and not sharing every ding dang detail with the world on the internet! Peace in✌️
When a situation doesn’t feel right and you know it, do you power through it while feeling the resistance or do you make big changes or do you ignore it and hope it will go away? Which is the best way to grow? Is there maturity in admitting you failed? Is there closure in sweeping it under the rug and pretending it’s not there? Is there codependency in continuing on because you don’t want to let people down?
So many changes! While listening to @the_hairapist_podcast I realized that I have been desperately trying to cling onto my Atlanta identity, but things are different out here. It’s always been my dream to be a graphic designer and here I am, plopped into southern California and designing graphics. I miss my old life, but I release it. I trust that I am where I am supposed to be. Okay, universe- do your thing!
It’s no secret that I don’t like to touch people or to be touched by people, so it took me way out of my comfort zone to take a 50 hour hands-on assists training at @laughinglotussf over the weekend. I realized that the more things I told myself were “fact” gave me permission to make things black and white in my life and held me back. So I am dissolving that old story and allowing myself space to heal and grow. What holds you back that you want to release?
Om namo Lakshmi! I’ve been reflecting on my wealth of blessings in the past few weeks. I felt a lot of guilt and sadness when we moved to Cali because I was leaving my life in ATL behind. During my holiday visit to Atlanta, I confronted those feelings and am ready to give San Diego a fair chance. I have wanted to live in California since I was a teenager, and I had unrealistic expectations of what that would be like because I had put it on a pedestal for so long. But now I can work hard to get the life I want here and I am so ready for it! Jai ma!
2018, you were the year of my Saturn returns and you didn’t disappoint. 2019, I hope that we can work together to find me a community in Cali that’s like my kula in Georgia. I hope to jump back on my dharmic path and embrace the new changes you’ll surely throw at me. I will take care of my hips better and heal my pains. I will continue finding ways to love and understand the divine. I want more adventures. I want to heal my fear of being touched so that I can give more hugs. I will fall deeper in love with my husband. I want to explore my new home more and be less of an introvert. I will embrace a new decade of my life with grace. 2018 it’s been real. 2019, nice to meet you. (PS my friend is opening @fireflyyogacenter in east Roswell in a few weeks! Check it out!)
It’s been such an honor and a privilege to teach while I’ve been in Atlanta. Endless thanks to those of you who I have shared space with. I am looking forward to rounding out my visit by teaching a kickass workshop tomorrow night with @sarahrrrose 💕