150318 Day 4 at Long Bedian Long Bedian is made up of a majority of Kayan villagers who are really friendly and nice. I was on my way back to the stay place and walked pass by the door of the longhouse where this elder aunty was staying. I was looking at the harvested paddy on the floor when I realized she was looking at me and smiled so angelic. I always believe that the concept of ethnicity is a redundancy. The global defines ethnicity as a group of people who share similarity. So when all homo sapien share a similar kind hearted smile, we shall all be one ethnic, isn't? The concept of ethnicity in the context of human should be demolished. Years ago it was suggested to eliminate the column of ethnicity in all the administrative forms but till today, such column still exist, such concept still prevail among the citizens. I still believe that the labeling of ethnicity should be not be a tool, for purposes like politic. She knew I wasn't part of her Kayan community, but she could tell me bye bye with a very very broad smile. ❤
140318 Day 4 at Long Bedian Of uncountable field experiences, what boosted my self-achievement is the time when I listen more than I talk. Many local villagers love telling me many valuable knowledge and even story or advice which I always feel so precious and greatful. Before I could help them physically, I know that I could help them mentally by appreciating the knowledge they give to me and show them my respect by all means, not only to get what we want in the field. Dilemma often happens when you're really into an ethical researcher role. Ethnocentrism often occur among human, that's why we shall always be humble and greatful that we are able to access to the people and hence bringing the knowledge to the other people who do not know about it. Regardless of job and status,when we are in the field, always treat ourselves as students, learn and write down everything we see and listen. The Kayan old man in the picture is uncle Wan Jmang Wan, 72 y/o. I spent almost 2hours interviewing him but I was extremely happy after that despite a long session. He shared alot of what he knew about the timber industry and the development in this Kayan village. I still feel so greatful that he explained to me about the greedy timber company who went against government's quote given to them by overlogging then coupe of forest area allowed for them (he spelled this term to me and illustrated by pointing the mosaic on the floor). The government restricted the over logging of forest in order to let the young trees to grow and protect part of the old trees. But the company were ignorance,they brought an extra number of 'lipan'( heavy vehicle for tree felling)and cut off all the big trees from the coupes which are allowed to be logged only at the following years. From here I know more about the voice of local people and i get to know myself more as well as making my own principle clear as crystal. The long hours talking to one person is tiring but always precious to me. ❤
130318 Day 3 at Long Kevok In Long Kevok(which consist of 60 doors), a number of the villagers were migrated to the village via marriage, some are Kenyah and Penan-Malay. There is one villager Iming Laeng whom I interviewed with, is from Ba Ubong, far at Mulu area. I remember a handsome boy (the boy on the left in the first photo)wearing a jersey with his name, Nick printed on it, came to us and told us he is a Penan-Malay(father) when he saw Nicky was interviewing his friend. So Nicky asked him where does your father originated from? Sabah, he said. Then he continued his sentence, Tapi saya Christian. This is cute. He does understand the whole picture, we are quite affirmed of that.The 4th picture is memorable because the villagers offered me a kind of forest fruit called Buah Metuna in Penan language which the boys have just collected back from the forest and distributed to their relatives. It tastes like rambutan with slightly more sour. Dogs are on the truck with their owners after working a day at the forest. It was late evening at around 6pm. People started returning from the estate/farm and went out again to have their bath by the river.
130318 Day 3 at Long Kevok It is currently the harvesting season at Sarawak and people at the villages are busy with their harvested paddy, both padi sawah and padi bukit. The role of women (which often oversight) is significant esp when it is browsed with a wider holistic lens. The villagers usually keep the paddy instead of selling it. Making up of majority Penan, the villagers moved from Long Lapo( according to my respondent, he said Long Lapo was the first Penan settlement, and when Long Kevok is established, many aids from government are given since it is the father of the Penan settlements). SK Long Kevok is situated right at the front of the village to provide elementary education for the youngs. A helipad is located at the field side. The youngs have their secondary education at K9 Long Bedian. SAMLING used to be the nearest timber industry to this village. Due to CSR, the company often gave the village material aids like drinks and foods during festive season like Christmas, before it was closed down years ago.
130318 Day 3 at Long Latie(Latei) 30 minutes plus ride from Long Leng, we arrived at Long Latie for the next interview with the people here. My first respondent from this village was Simon Laeng, 51 y/o who holds a number of position in the village. The conversation with him comes to a realization that the position of a person(standard of living) is often correlate with one's point of view towards the fast-pace industrialization at the nature setting of local villagers. After the hours of interview we went down to the river for our lunch preparation. Long Latie was used to be on the other side of this river before it was moved uphill years ago. Consisting of 380 jiwa (people) from 97 families, the villagers were moved from Long Nalong. Cook at the river was prepared by us for everyone while uncle washed their 4W. No worries, I picked up all the trash and our own waste before leaving the place. And we washed the rice and cabbage with mineral water.
120318-130318 Day 2 and 3 at Long Leng Different from the penan settlements I visited 2 years ago which are still very unsettled and nomadic, Penan community in Long Leng is well aware of their self resilience of a sustainable living condition. Despite of its distance, this 22-doors longhouse (with some isolated dwelling surrounding)is led by Ketua Kampung Maister who is very caliber in bringing the community towards an essentialized living that he tries hard to bring the longhouse towards the direction of tourism and get frequent contact with the outside world to ensure that the longhouse is getting well known.The day before we set off to Long Atie after a night at the longhouse, they performed us a'tui, the traditional dance and music instrument of Penan. KK Maister said it was used to play in the ancient time when the hero of Penan returned with their prey like tiger( Errr...we actually knew there is no tiger in Sarawak) Little did I know, I have been pondering does this really represent the Penan identity? While savoring the dance and music, I am thinking if they actually create this culture of theirs in line with the pace of tourism and modernization which emphasize much on indigenous culture as an attraction. However, still I watched it and asked one of the elders on the instrument as I observed that they only hit the two ends of the a'tui instrument made of Meranti wood. He told me that the sound coming from the middle part of the trunk is less tunable compared to the two ends of it. The hit of sound is often played for welcoming guest like YB and also sending them off during their departure. Well, here I learn something new. Regardless of its factual sides, I still believe it is a great steps for the Penan in their efforts of getting known by the other community, and I appreciate the life chance for questioning myself on the insufficient knowledge in me which remind me on doing more studies on the fact that I might not know.
120318 Day 2 at Long Leng Setting off from Miri at around 10am and headed to ulu Baram, we arrived at our first village at Long Leng, a penan village led by a very smart and wealthy headman at almost 3pm and was welcomed by the villagers with their tarian a'tui We finished our interview session and started to prepare for dinner with the ration we brought on our truck. The view was astonishing, a piece of forest right behind the longhouse attracted me with its sunset sky while I was cooking.
150318 Day 4 Tutuh Apoh road A day before we got down to Miri, we visited Long Bemang, a kayan village with 300 doors of villagers. One of our 4W was stuck in the mud on the road because there was a rain in the night before. Road at some places are bad with no maintenance when timber company is no longer operating at that particular area. It took almost 40 minutes for uncle Meow and Sebastian to work their effort on it with own bare hand before the vehicle made it to get through the struggle. A penan heavy vehicle driver who came towards the end gave his help too. The vehicle is bringing its on wheel on the body. You can see such vehicle on the balak road.
110318 All ration are ready to set off for tomorrow's fieldwork to apoh tutoh road, heading to the Kenyah and Penan's settlement. Many limitations esp on the role of us as data collectors who will be interviewing the local people on environmental issues(which they usually dont really like) but we need to conquer ourselves and always be mindful of the etiquette being a researcher and social scientist.
110318 Squeezed an hour of time catching favourite sunset at my favourite city right after working hour. ❤
020318 What did you say when I told you I love the sky here.
010318 Ever since I knew she is a tough mom and I knew he is my dad to fulfill a family institution for me, I decided to love them unconditionally.I might miss out a lot of typical love you had when you were in your childhood and adolescence but what I decided to do is,still love them more than I love myself and one day, dont repeat the same history to my eldest daughter and second son.I couldn't choose the family I am in but I can make my own family on my desire.I cant substitute the position of another child in a family but am always trying to play a multi role. Life is about heading the route to death, human are chasing after a living that can make this Life a happy and smooth one before death (this is why human insist to 'need' a religion).Being a good child isn't hard, to be there when they need help to throw the garbage,be polite,no bad temper and be good manners to them and to the others,to share thoughts with them so that they can have choices of opinion,to share what we learn from education system whc they provide us to be educated,to fulfill their need of my report cards to be full As,to never let them fill embarrassed of the new tech but be there to teach them,to be there when they need an ear to complain, a companion for shopping at IKEA,an extra large refrigerator......And to give them better material and enjoyment when we are getting more affordable as we grow up.I still upright my stand that I don't choose to be born,this really go against my human right,but lil did it know,am working hard with my positive heart and not so-clever-but-big brain for their next 40 years(if possible more) of Life.This trip back home I was asked many times on Ris, when are you coming back again?,see, I told you am the best daughter. Love is simple, you don't make it complicated. #mommylookedsadbecauseshewillbemissingme #iguess #toldyouamthebestdaughter
260218 Be proud of your hometown, your land and root. No idea why I like trees, and this little tree is way too cool. #globalcapture #storyofthestreet
240218 A tad overexcited to see this little boss after the last time I saw him laying lazily at his dad's stall, a keymaker exactly a year ago. Friendly uncle smiled at me when I asked him if I could take a picture and he tried to let lil fur kid to pose for me. This really made my day❤🐾
230218 后来才发现 人们常把得天独厚 当做理所当然 静下来看雨 听风 你自然知道 什么是时不待人 待你回头终于清楚原来反哺不是金钱 更不是执着 只是了解 不计前嫌 轻声细语 不驳斥 不争辩 可惜你浪费了之前更多机会和时间 家庭能给的 和爱情里能给的不同 家庭能给的 不是爱情能代替的 没有美满的家庭 就该努力让它美好 没有完美的爱情 就该努力让它增长 没有把握的人生 就该努力充实自己 失去过的亲情 就该努力找回 勿重蹈覆辙 物极必反 器满则倾 你会懂得