Love you forever you sweet crazy smiley goofy child of mine. Thank you for making me a mama 💕
I was sending in some client film a couple of days ago and threw in some personal rolls from January (usually don’t send in personal stuff till the work stuff is going to because shipping is $$$$$). I kind of forgot that they were in this order, but what a wonderful surprise 💕 also, I’m now team frontier (if you know, you know 📷🎞). Sorry, noritsu. ✌🏼(thank you, @richardphotolab for the faster than expected turn around time 🙏🏼). #chicagofamilyphotographer #chicagolifestyle #chicagofilmphotographer #chicagofamilyphotos #contax645 #ishootfilm #filmfeed #familiesonfilm #letthekids #honestmotherhood #millenialmom #targethome #burtsbeesbaby #lifestylefamilyphotography
I took this photo using my watch (it’s not perfect, we are all looking different directions 😂) because I didn’t want to forget this day and how I felt entering a new decade. Tbh I don’t really like birthdays, not because of getting older but because all of the super focused attention makes me feel really anxious 🤷🏻♀️ 30 feels different because 30 feels like an opportunity to look back on what might be one of the most formative decades of my entire life. Cody and I met a few months before my 20th birthday. We got married 3.5 years later. We bought our first home at the same time. We graduated college, started our careers, and traveled. We’ve experienced the loss of people we loved and gone through a life changing diagnosis. We moved again. Lived through a major remodel. Experienced career milestones, made life long friends and we started our family. I’m so proud of us. I’m proud of my 20s and I absolutely can not WAIT to see what our 30s bring. 💕
I stood by the elevator holding a wiggling toddler doing everything in his power to get out of my arms. Two women, prob in their early-mid 40s walked up behind us, also waiting, and I half expected them to decide to take the stairs rather than get on an elevator with a toddler who was minutes past his usual nap time... but they didn’t and to be honest, I was dreading what I imagined was about to happen. Being stuck in a medal box with a crying kid and two women who prob didn’t want that experience to be a part of their day. The doors opened and I turned around and apologized “he’s really into pushing the buttons, but doesn’t like that he’s not allowed to press them all. And we are teething and it’s nap time. I’m so sorry” I said half laughing (trying to make it less awkward), half hanging my head out of embarrassment. One of the women looked right at Cole and said “do you want to push the button for me?? It’s this one!!” And his face lit up. Then for the next 20 seconds the women interacted with him and made him smile, and as they got off the elevator one of them turned around and said “hang in there mama, you’re doing a really great job!”. The doors closed and I felt myself tear up. They couldn’t have known how much I needed that brief interaction and those words of encouragement in that moment. It was the simplest act of kindness that has stuck with me for a few days now. It has me thinking about how impactful our words are (for better or worse). So I’m going to be more mindful. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 Moral of the story: choose what you say to a stranger, or even the look you give, carefully and think about the chain reaction you may be setting off. ❌⭕️
One of us is enjoying the snow. Two of us are a little concerned that the Night King is about to knock on our door and turn us in to ice zombies. I’ll let you decide who is who. #whatdoaprilsnowshowersbring
Today i managed to shower and do my hair.... but totally forgot about makeup 🤷🏻♀️ We are on day 5 of one nap a day and the back bottom molar is making its way to the surface, and for some reason this seems to be affecting Cole more than any of the other molars (poor guy). I checked @thewonderweeks app and we are directly under a storm cloud (if you know, you know), and all of this makes a heavy pour a very pleasant end to the week. #hesprettycutethough 😏
He knows. 🥑 #cheerily
WARNING... This is basically a blog post in the form of an Instagram post 😬 - The thought “I wish I didn’t know”, has crossed my mind more than a few times. I wish I didn’t know that I had this thing. This thing that I’m scared of. This thing that has the potential to disable me. Let me explain... When you know you have something like MS, a disease that is unpredictable and can show its ugly face in a million different ways, it starts to play tricks on you. Every little twinge of something, every time my foot falls asleep, any time I stumble over a word, every time I feel more tired than usual, stub my toe, loose my balance, every time I feel anything “off” my instant reaction is “new lesion”. If i didn’t have MS, 99% of these things I’d prob never think twice about or I’d come up with another obvious reason for, but because I know the potential of this disease I have these surges of fear. And then I say to myself, “so what if it is a new lesion?”. I went through years of having random things come up that were bothersome enough that I saw doctors, and i never got an explanation as to WHY these things were happening, UNTIL I was diagnosed with MS. Isn’t it better to know that there is potentially a reason behind these symptoms (and then be able to go from there) as opposed to being in that unbearable state of feeling like you are crazy or worried it’s just all in your head (no pun intended) because there was never an answer? For me, that unknown was worse. I know that I am being proactive in my treatment and doing what I can to stop this disease in its tracks. Could it get worse? Sure, but so what? What I consider to be “worse”, the person in the infusion chair next to me might consider to be “better”. So let’s just take it one day at a time, shall we? - My neurologist promises me I’ll get to know my disease, and these little feelings that pop up here and there won’t scare me so much. Maybe it’s like having a bad roommate you can’t get rid of, so instead you just have to learn how to live with them and get to know their quirks. Not an ideal situation, but one you can learn to manage (but still have every right to complain about sometimes 😉).
The face every single person in the Midwest makes when there are two over 50 degree days in a row 🙊 could it be??? Could spring be here?? JK there is potential snow in the forecast for Saturday 😑 but in the meantime we are going to go for as many walks and squeeze in as much park time as we can. #hanginthere midwesterners!!!
I spent Saturday morning surrounded by people laughing and having a good time. For the most part it was care free. An opportunity for people to be outside, walk, and support each other in the Florida sunshine. But every so often there were these moments of 1-on-1 conversations filled with extreme emotion and understanding. I talked to people about MS, and treatment, and here and there shared a little bit about my experience but mostly I listened. I listened to people who 15 months ago, I probably didn’t have much in common with, but now felt an undeniable bond. I realized there’s a willingness to be open with others when there is an unspoken understanding that they just “get it”. Finding these types of people to talk to when you’re in the midst of processing something difficult is so important. Finding these types of people to talk to even when you think you’re done processing is so important. When I was first diagnosed I was desperate to interact with others who had gone through what I was going through, but at the same time i was terrified of what I’d see. What I know now is that getting over that fear and seeking out interactions, even if they are brief (or over social media), with others who understand the really hard stuff and who have felt those same feelings, is so healing. 🧡 #mswalk #multiplesclerosisawareness #multiplesclerosis #livingwithms #thisisms #lifewithms #newlydiagnosed #chronicillness #invisibleillness #mssociety #nomsingaround #ocrevus #mswarrior #discoverunder20k #theeverymom #mamastakenote #msstrong
Purely out of curiosity (and so i don’t feel as bad about myself), what number cup of coffee are you on today? Because I’m on 3. 😬
I'm writing a note to my past new-mom self, knowing what I know now: Time goes by too fast, but sometimes you will wish it would speed up. That is normal. You will feel incredible joy, but you will also cry a lot. Don't be afraid to ask for help. When you see your baby learn something new you will swell with pride, but other times you will feel like you've failed. You haven't. You will love spending time with your baby, but sometimes you will need space. Call a sitter. Some days you look like dynamite but on others you will realize you haven't washed your hair in a week. You are still beautiful. You will feel like you know it all one minute but the next you will have a million questions. Google is great, but doctors and other people who have parented are better. Love your kid but love yourself too. You got this. #sharetheeverymom #mamastakenote #atruelookatmotherhood #iamtheeverymom