Redoing my blogpost about Hudson’s party... in case you were wondering the status on that. 🙄 technology is against me.
Went to the waterpark with Lolli and these little boys today. Worked at this waterpark for six years of my young adult life. Had some amazing times here, worked SO MANY HOURS every summer serving others and putting my heart into it. Missing out on summers with my family, summer holidays, & vacations. On days I felt burnt out and tired and weary of serving I would visualize my “one day” and I would think about “one day” when I’m a mom staying home with my babies I’ll come here and be on the other side of it all. Some days that thought kept me going....and here we are today. My first time taking my two boys to swim during the hours of operation at the waterpark, with all the other moms. I would say living my “one day” is something so special and kinda surreal. As silly as it sounds, today was a big one. Trying to appreciate the fact that today, I literally lived a dream I once had. So blessed, so thankful.
This blogpost all about Hudson’s first birthday is nearly ready to go, I was linking a few more items and going to post.... but guess what? BLOG TECHNICAL difficulties. It’s like a sick joke, I can’t post it, I can’t save the work I’ve done. I’m stuck in some sketchy blog limbo right now and I’m hoping my husband can come home and save us 😂 everyone.... say a prayer #jesustakethewheel
Ready for some Friday adventures with this stud.
Today started off rough...nothing a little afternoon pool party can’t fix.
When life’s a beach and not the “beach” kind of beach....you make yourself the largest iced coffee and smile anyway. Today is starting out with a tad rough. The boys have been fussy and already gotten hurt all before 9am. It’s fine, I’m fine, they are fine. It’s going to be a HAPPY Wednesday, if it’s the last thing I do 😂
Lately I’ve really struggled with feeling inadequate. Feeling like I tirelessly serve my family but for some reason that isn’t enough. Feeling like I need to be pursuing more, doing more, having a super successful business from home, doing more activities with the kids, the list goes on. Most days I really struggle with the burden of those thoughts. Wishing I could do more, but feeling maxed out, focusing on our children and trying hard to make them (and house upkeep) the priority. The world of comparison has a much larger scope than it did in our mother’s day. Seeing all the things all the other mothers are accomplishing all over the world through our little phone screens. It’s hard, it’s hard not to compare yourself to what everyone else is accomplishing and feeling like you don’t measure up. I think it’s easy to miss out on seeing your most important purpose, when you are looking through the lens of comparison. God gifted us each with special and specific abilities. My abilities aren’t the same as anyone else’s, and yours aren’t the same as mine, but that doesn’t mean we aren’t fully equipped to serve and complete our purpose. It doesn’t mean we aren’t worthy, or enough. I feel like I’m called to stay home and raise children right now. For me, that’s focusing most my energy on them day to day. It doesn’t leave much room to pursue other things right now, and that’s okay. It’s taken me quite some time to realize THAT’S OKAY. I’m trying to learn to rest and settle into this season of life with gladness of heart. Some days it’s really hard, some days it’s joyful, some days it’s mundane. Just know, you are enough, mama. If you struggle with feeling inadequate, God sees and you are ENOUGH. Taking a breath today, and trusting the Lord that I’m where I need to be.
Bedtime stories. Sometimes when they are sitting and playing sweetly I have to take a moment, sit back, and soak it in. Feels like more often I’m playing referee, but today for a few moments they sat in their room and “read” books together. I can’t wait until they both sleep in here together through the night because they currently both usually end up in our bed...and I usually end up with a crick in my neck and sweating profusely, while crammed between two tiny body’s. So happy, but really freakin tired 😂
Been playing hard all morning. Currently sunny and hot but we see a texas thunderstorm rolling in⛈getting everyone down for a nap while we listen to the thunder roll. My favorite kinda afternoon. Iced coffee for a mama nap time reward, next.
Take me back to the 50’s. Fun fact about me, “I Love Lucy” is my all time favorite show. I own every season and have watched them all from start to finish at least 8 times each. Everything about those days makes me happy. So here I am pretending, in a much shorter skirt. Happy start of the week & I hope your Monday isn’t very, “Monday” at all.