Watching game footage with dad & recording stats might just be my new favorite thing😍 With every puke stained shirt, every song sung before bed time, every game of peek-a-boo, every time you pull up another blanket in the middle of the night so I don’t wake up cold, every time you ask me if I need anything when you’re coming home from work, & every time you get Chick Fil A for din😉 I fall a little more in love with you @thehistorical_now
What a difference 6 months makes😍😫 6 months with the happiest, easiest baby who is steadily becoming more mobile, popped out a tooth, is still so cuddly but easily distracted with this great big world, & his newest thing...growling😂 Just when we thought we couldn’t love him any more! Coop, you’re better than any gift we ever have or could receive.
We have SO much to be grateful for..top of the list being all 3 of us smiling for a picture!
“We know that every moment is a moment of grace, every hour an offering; not to share them would mean to betray them. Our lives no longer belong to us alone; they belong to all those who need us desperately.” Elie Wiesel I think God has a sense of humor because not even quite an hour after putting this up, taken from the quote above ^^ I had about 10 texts to reply to, & hungry baby waking up early from his nap, as if God was saying “You know this quote you loved? It’s time to live it out & give to those who need you. I’m going to push you but hold your hand through it because you can’t do it alone.” And boy was I aware of those last 5 words more than I care to admit. I told Andrew that I felt like everyone needed something from me right now. But just like I posted about last week, God knows exactly how much I can handle. I slowly realized this was His kindness to grow me in some things I had been wanting to work on but never really been forced to. Want to get up earlier? Here, you can take your husband to work @ 7am. Want to spend less time getting ready in the morning? You’ve got 10 minutes before you need to leave the house. Want to spend less time scrolling through Instagram? Here are 6 shoots in 7 days, better start editing! It’s amazing what can happen when you shift your perspective. I’ve been seeing everyone’s thankful lists, so here’s mine. - A husband who sacrificed his own weekend, made me food, & took care of our teething baby so I could go to shoots & edit. - @magnolia ‘s fall candles @target 🙌🏻 - A new week, a new to-do list, a new Monday to love others & show up for those who need. - Wine. Always wine. - A sustaining & gracious Savior.
This past year I had a chat with God & it went something like this... “Lord, if you want my business to be busy this year, so be it & give me the strength to handle a new baby & as many shoots as you have for me. If not, give me a peace to know you’re in control & appreciation for a slower season.” Turns out God wanted me to stay busy & He’s given me the strength to handle it. Why does that always surprise me? Am I more tired these days? Sure. But I am so grateful for the gift of an easy baby who naps wonderfully so I can get stuff done & family members who can watch him so I can continue doing what I love. Do I get everything checked off my to-do list in a day? More often than not, no. But would I get less done if I was “hustling” (in the sense that I’m used to) more, posting more, & would I have enjoyed this season with my baby a lot less? Yes. So this year God decided to keep me busy despite my lack of posting, emailing vendors or marketing my business as much as I probably should have. I’m learning “should” is a relative term, though. If my goal was to be even busier, I know what I “should” have done. But God has given me as much as He knows I can handle & I am beyond grateful for that. I’m grateful for a husband who works hard & has a great job so I have the option of working or not. And I’m grateful to be able to contribute to our finances. I felt the need to post today because I’ve been getting the question “are you still shooting?” a lot lately. Its totally valid because I know I’ve been fairly absent, part of that is intentional, part of it isn’t. To answer, yes I am. I’m still having so much fun with my clients, I still love it, & I still can’t believe it’s considered a job! These days I’m just feeling less guilty about not posting new work, though, not because I don’t want more work, but because I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with social media & never want my initial response, to something fun happening in our life or a new shoot or Cooper doing something cute, to be...I’ve got to share that! I’ve learned that there are other ways to love my clients besides just posting about how cute they are (continued in comments)...
Who are these BABIES?! The 1st time Andrew Kutz said “I love you”, I wasn’t sure about the guy & I certainly wasn’t sure if I loved him yet. If I could tell my younger self 1 thing, it would be “Tell him you love him, stupid! He’s worth it & he’s going to stick around even after you break up with him, even after you tell him you never thought you’d end up married to your 1st boyfriend, (being him. Yes I was a jerk) even after countless future arguments where you’re being completely unreasonable. That boy is going to love you so much it could make you cry & he’s going to be the best thing that ever happened to you. But even if you tell him you love him now, you won’t really know what that means for a few years. It’s only going to keep getting better.” In some ways 2 years feels like 20 because I can’t remember a time without you, but in other ways, I can’t believe how fast time has flown by. Happy Anniversary @thehistorical_now thank you for loving me from the beginning & showing me in countless ways since♥️
Cooper at the pumpkin patch 🎃
Only 3 days late because I shot my 1st wedding since maternity leave this past weekend & Monday was full on recovery mode😴but our sweet Coop is 4 months old!!! Time you cruel cruel thing. I hate & love you at the same time. Looking back at pictures of when he was born brings tears to my eyes, but I get SO excited anticipating what he will be like when he grows up. Each day with this crazy boy brings so much light & joy, & I’m savoring every second that he’s still fairly immobile (although the rolling over is in full force!). He’s now been to the beach, slept through 2 whole plane rides & a few very long road trips. We are so grateful that he’s been such a happy, content boy who loves music & joins in now with his loud screeches. Andrew & I still look at each other & say “isn’t it crazy that we have a kid & that he’s here & remember when we wondered what he’d look like?” He turned out pretty cute, I guess 😉