this past year has been one of many transformations. i don’t think any year so far has brought as much change and newness into my life as this one. maybe that’s the point of getting older, of time passing. maybe it’s just been a hell of a year. much of what’s changed has changed me, too. mostly in good ways. i’ve not always been good at dealing with things changing, but i’ve started to embrace change as one of the very few constants among many variables of life. with change comes growth. and i’ve felt the growing pains- the aching of my mind, trying to stretch and wrap around the new realities. much like muscles have to slightly tear in order to strengthen and much like skin sometimes tears to fit a new shape. space has to be made mentally in order for a mind to warp into something new. i find space in movement. i find space in creation. my favourite way to be present and focused is through exercise. breathing and sweating and forcing my mind to be aware of nothing but my body and the current moment. I spend many many hours every week moving my body and it’s the one things that brings me clarity and makes me feel alive. It’s taken me a while to find clothes I feel comfortable in while being active and ~ schweaty~ but ever since I discovered @organicbasics last year I haven’t really worn anything but their sustainable and ethically produced activewear. It feels good to take care of myself while wearing something that takes care of the earth a little bit as well. I have a discount code to get 10% off anything on their website (makes for good Christmas presents as well) - so treat yo’self or your loved ones. » LAURAOBC4 « 🌟
freckles. dimples. scars. spots. poems. drawings. stories on a skin that sometimes feels like home and sometimes feels like prison. in reality it's just a shape that holds my mind and soul. a piece of wrapping paper that holds worlds and universes. worries. hopes. dreams. me.
over liefde zo verdwijn ik in je armen dein ik zachtjes met je mee dobber op je golven in je eindeloze zee spiegel ik je adem elke teug die ik me neem vloeit de warmte binnenuit over alle randen heen
it’s a funny time we live in. so many transitions, challenges, developments. so much information for our brains to process, to discuss and yet we tend to beat around the bush, to equivocate and struggle alone. there are a ton of things we feel anxious to talk about, which is a shame because sharing is healing🌙 i try to challenge that anxiety and talk about scary stuff. today, in an attempt of being vulnerable i’ll share a little story about a subject we all feel super comfortable talking about :-) PERIODS 🌟 a lil backstory: due to eating disorder stuff for most of my teenage years, my body shut down some of its organs and all the functions that it deemed unnecessary- my menstrual cycle being one of those “unnecessary” things (makes sense: if a body doesn’t even have the energy to take care of itself, then HOW could it be able to nurture a child). this condition, amenhorrea, or the absence of menstruation is actually quite common and can be very harmful in the long run. it took me a long time to recover and i had already hit my twenties when i had my very first real period. i went through a hyper emotional rollercoaster of hormonal changes, felt like a stranger in my own body: a grown up mind in a pubescent brain- and with all the hormones raving in my frontal lobes i kind of wanted to go back to not having a period at all. i try to make the most conscious choices (to my ability) in every aspect of my life. so every moon, besides feeling like shit for no reason at all, i felt bad for buying single use pads and tampons, but the menstrual cup really didn’t work for me and thus i have been on a bit of a quest to finding the right, less wasteful and more sustainable solution for my period problem recently i was conveniently approached by @always_nederland about their new products 👐🏼 their cotton protection pads contain an organic topsheet without any toxic dyes or bleaches. the packaging is made of recycled carton and plantbased materials. they’re a way of taking care of myself and the world as well as i can (along with a bunch episodes of new girl and any kind of sugary food i can find- i am a cliché) 🌱 #alwayscottonprotection #consciouschoices #ad