π³ πππ ππππ πππππ ππππ πππππππ πππ ππππππ, ππππ πππ πππ πππ π³ so i kinda dipped out for the last fortnight. i didn't mean to. i finally thought i was getting somewhere with my skin. i had a dermatology appointment after booking one over a year ago that got cancelled because of covid. i was just sitting on the list waiting for them to finally get through all the cancelled appointments. after finally getting my appointment last week - the derm agreed to give me isotretinoin (roaccutane) after having a blood test to see what my cholesterol base line is (it can make it spike) and after a negative pregnancy test. both of these have to be done at the hospital. i can't book in for them without a referral letter. which they said they were sending me nearly two weeks ago. i still don't have it. i can't talk to anyone it's just endless ringing phones and unreturned voicemails. so i'm not actually any further forward than i was two weeks ago. i've just been promised something that feels out of reach. to top it if i can't stop fucking coughing ... so i went and had a covid test and am waiting for the results of that. π€πΌ had a massive cry this afternoon because i am at my wits end. i wish i could say i feel better for it but i really don't. π β¨ brunch was a bacon, red onion and cheese omelette which i accidentally slipped too much black pepper on. πππΌ 
π₯‘ ππππ ππ πππππ π₯‘ spent all day thinking if was saturday. a little bit disappointed to find out it wasn't. π just a chill one for me. did the food shop and have been binge watching selling sunset this evening. on the last episode and i'm not happy about having no more to watch. π β¨ chinese for dinner - sweet and sour chicken, chow mein and veg spring rolls. π€€ 
π₯ πππππππ π ππ π₯ i flippin' love pancakes - pun not intended. so many different combinations. i prefer a mix of fruit and sweetness on mine, though i wouldn't say no to bacon and syrup. π€€ β¨ raspberries, white chocolate chips, sprinkles and some maple syrup. please and thank you. anyone giving anything up for lent? i feel like just straight up giving up if i'm honest. π 
π ππππ ππππ ππ πππππππ πππππππ anyone else struggling with lockdown number 38720? can't just be me surely. i'm extremely grateful to have been working through it but all i seem to be doing is going to work, going home and sleeping and going back to work. i've got nothing else going on and i won't lie, my mental health has taken a bit of a dip because of it. since christmas i've struggled to get back on it food wise for numerous different reasons but i'm drawing a line under all that and started again. β¨ porridge with lemon curd and raspberries for breakfast this morning. βΊοΈ 
β¨ ππππ πππππ β¨ it's been about 5 months since i posted about my acne so i thought i was long overdue a check in with how my skin's currently doing. prior to november i was working an office job and didn't have to wear a face mask for the majority of my day. now i can be wearing them for up to 15 hours a day. everybody knows masks can cause a whole variety of skin problems, acne being very high on that list. i'm currently on day 9 of 10 days annual leave so my skin is not currently as irritated as it has been. but looking back at the photos i took in august my skin has come a long way since then. slowly but surely. i was recommended @dermatica.skin by @carolinehirons last year since i wasn't getting anywhere with seeing a dermatologist because of covid. i've been using it since june and can really see the difference it is starting to make. they tailor the formula to you and your skin care needs. i'm currently on a mix of adapalene, benzoyl peroxide and clindamycin. it took me a long time to notice the results and even now it's always jarring when i haven't seen a friend in a while and the first thing they comment on is how much better my skin looks. it's been something that has killed my confidence for years so for myself and others to see an improvement in it - that honestly is something i'd only ever dreamt of. long may it continue. π€πΌ 
πΈ ππππ ππ ππ ππππ πΈ this my face taking lymecycline (antibiotics) this is my face taking trimethoprim (antibiotics) this is my face using prescription based retinols this is my face using only the photo booth filter from @acolorstory, no brightening, no blurring, no nothing β‘οΈ swipe to see how i wish i could show my skin on a daily basis π i've wrote and rewrote this a million times and still almost didn't post it. why is showing -actual- skin something that makes people anxious? is it because it's been so ingrained in us that the best version of you, the one you can present to the world is the one that's been through 100 different filters and apps that get rid of natural skin texture, which everyone has by the way, despite what the internet would have you believe. stress is a massive trigger for me and at present i seem to be stuck in the vicious circle of getting stressed about stuff β‘οΈ my skin flares up β‘οΈ i stress about my skin β‘οΈ my skin flares up. rinse, lather and repeat. at 31 i shouldn't still be having these issues but i am. and not posting about it makes me feel a little inauthentic if i'm honest as it's something i know people struggle with, especially people my age - but no one seems to talk about it. as it stands right now this is my skin, it's the only one i've got and i'm doing my best to be more comfortable within it. π€ 
π± πππππ πππππ π±β hi. hello, i archived all my previous posts last week's for many reasons but mostly because i was exhibiting toxic behaviourals that i've been working on trying to move away from during lockdown. so at least i've done something productive with my time besides play animal crossing. π plan for the rest of the afternoon is chromatica on repeat and a lil' tidy up. π @crazycolorltd - toxic uv.