Perfect homemade healthy chicken curry now ready for the birthday evening treat to start . Then a bit of Aquaman / Jason Mamao to cap off the day. Thanks a million for the birthday wishes, I am very touched!!
It will be my 47th birthday tomorrow - just 3yrs away from the big 5-0!! , and it is also going to be Pete and mine's 23rd year anniversary. Things have been tough mentally at times over the last month, but I have picked up well thanks to my amazing Mama , hubby and Jinx. I have been living in the garden practically, birdwatching and getting some great shots with my new camera and lounging on my new Garden swing seat. The best birthday presents EVER. I have also thrown myself into cooking , and have treated the family to homemade, healthy Chicken Tikka Masala, Butter Chicken, Korma, Dahl, homemade Naan breads and Chapatis. Tomorrow on the big day we are going to have homemade samosas and will prepare them in the garden. So all in all I am very grateful and feeling good considering. Thank you for all your lovely words of support after Jasper's passing, I was so raw then and couldn't respond but they meant the world to me so thank you
RIP Jasper Braund April 2005 - March 2019 He rests amongst flower petals by our favourite Garden bench . Thank you for the lovely sentiments expressed. I will say goodbye for now
My baby is going to be put to sleep in 2 hours time. He has deteriorated so much and is a shell of himself, and is in obvious pain . It is the compassionate thing to do I know.... how I am going to live without him is another question entirely. I went through a harrowing court case taking my abuser to justice for 11 years of child sexual abuse, grooming, rape and physical abuse. He is also known as my father. The support from family , friends and inlaws ranged from it being insinuated that I am attention seeking, to supportive, but too little to late. My mind broke permanently and so did my body. Bed bound for 2 years after that event, the only thing I had was my hands and my laptop. Then this 2 beautiful souls came into my life. One of them the runt of the litter chose me. He was feisty and mischievous and oh do smart, almost human at times. My little soul mates and companion there to comfort and play with while I forged ahead trying to heal through creative means. Now what? No Jasper? It seems unbelievable.... I am going to take a break from social media for a while and try to reconfigure my day to day life without my baby
I'm ready for a chillaxing weekend with my boys. Jasper has managed to reach March, against all odds and Dr Death the vet's predictions. He and us are now living on borrowed time. The brothers are closer than they have ever been, almost as though Jinx knows that time spent together is precious - they walk into the garden together now, and huddle on the bed which is unheard of as they have always been so competitive with one another. Anyway they will turn 14 years old in a month, I just hope that Jasper makes it