I feel so fortunate that breastfeeding my babies has been relatively easy. Of course, there have been times when both me and baby have cried through frustration, and feeding on demand is exhausting, but thankfully I’ve never struggled with any pain, and perseverance paid off and we made it through those rocky first few weeks. I still find it so amazing, that my body is keeping this little boy alive, allowing him to grow and flourish. The human body is an incredible thing and I’m in awe of it every single day.
Three months has been a turning point for this little one. Up until this point in his life he would only nap in his @ergobaby or @sollybabywrap. Baby wearing is great, but doing it for 8+ hours a day begins to take its toll. Then one day, I tried to put him down in his crib, as I’d tried for the past 3 months, ever hopeful... and miraculously, he actually slept there. For the first time ever. It only lasted 40 minutes, but it was glorious 🙌🏻 We’re still working on getting those naps to last longer, but even that small window of time makes such a big difference.
The calm before the storm. We’ve been preparing for the hurricane after a state of emergency was declared in Virginia. Hopefully it won’t be too catastrophic in our area, (although we’re still expecting a lot of fallen trees and flooding) but we’ve stocked up on water, non-perishables, batteries etc so we’re prepared. We’ve been told that past hurricanes have left people without power for 2+ weeks, I’m really hoping that doesn’t happen 🤞🏻 Thinking of those in the Carolinas who’ve had to evacuate and don’t know what condition their house will be in when they return 💕
3 months old today. What a rollercoaster it’s been. He’s our sweet butterball, already filling out 6-9 month clothing (I swear he’s almost as big as Everly). Smiles at anyone who is kind to him. Loves to eat his fists. Drooling up a storm. Grabs at toys and loves to be sung to. We absolutely adore getting to know him 💕
I had all these plans about how I was going to spend the 3 hours I had whilst the older two were at preschool today. And then I was just so exhausted I curled up in bed and spent most of the time sleeping whilst Luca had a nap. The eternal dilemma of a parent; to sleep or not to sleep 🤔
Their first day back at school. It always brings with it a sense of melancholy. The marking of another year lost; another year grown. They are my world, with their laughter filling the house, the constant chatter, and litter of toys. Coming back to the house when they’re not here, it feels empty. The vibrancy gone, if just for a moment. These tender years so fleeting. So hard, yet so rewarding. These two little souls that we have brought into the world, venturing out on their own, gifting others with their joy and sweet nature. My loves, I am so proud of who you are and what you’re becoming. You fill up my whole heart.
Today, Matt and I celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary. When I look back at the people we were in our wedding photos, it feels as though I’m looking at strangers. So young, fresh faced, filled with hope and happiness; we had no idea what we were about to face. Life has dealt us a lot of heartache and trauma over the years. We have faced unimaginable pain, and endured more than any person should, but we have done it together and we have become stronger for it. As our world crumbled around us after the death of our twin sons, the one thing left remaining was our love for each other. And our rock bottom became the foundation on which we built a new, broken, beautiful life together. Happy anniversary my love, look at what we’ve made 💕
For the first 6 weeks of Luca’s life we barely left the house because his reflux was so bad. We once attempted a journey to Target, but we didn’t even make it to out of our community before turning back because he was screaming so hard 😫 Thankfully he’s got a lot better, and this photo marks a successful outing to the mall. After this picture was taken though, we noticed he’d had a blowout, so it was outfit changes for both of us! 💩