Thanks to this 🌯 I rarely have use of both my hands, so I wasn’t able to respond to everyone that commented on my post from Friday. Since reading the comments I’ve continued to attempt to get a little breast milk in Noni but am no longer letting it take away from our time together, frustrate me, or make me feel like a shitty mom. Thank you for encouraging me to enjoy these early days. Due to social anxiety I’ve always isolated myself and being a stay at home mom has only made me more isolated. But the community (online and off) I’m so lucky to have has made me feel so much less alone. Thank you ladies! ♥️ @__itsallkasher @discoverelle @boxthestars @goldfish81 @jbcherniack @gooberbunny @flinflongirl @rpkreek @carlieannemiller @leahryork @pamelakirkpatrick @mama_beans_ @nopueswow @momsmorningwisdom @mariateicherdougherty @maryjanesmygirl @cristal929 @brittneyfaithdawn @acjlegal @sarahschulz07 @shellyrebs @vanessazywylo @fatyrbuckle @lafromfn @lauren.hassett @prairiepariah @artfulowl @pipcreek @samantha_michellle_ @jessabtame
Truth time. I’ve cried while trying to feed Noni almost every day for the last week. And not because it’s physically painful. I’ve actually experienced no pain, or dry/cracked nipples, etc. But that might be because I have little feeling there as a result of a breast reduction from 9 years ago. I knew it wasn’t likely I’d be able to exclusively breastfeed, but I was determined to try. There’s a higher chance of Noni getting sick due to Ken’s immune deficiency, so while I trust formula, I really wanted to get antibodies in her. So here we are at nearly 5 weeks. I’ve spent more than $300 on breastfeeding things, I pump for 2 hours a day, attempt to breastfeed for 3 hours a day, have started trying to use an SNS, I drink lactation tea, take supplements, and I’m producing maybe 30-60ML each day. We supplement with about 450ML of formula. Lately she’s started pushing my boobs away and crying when she latches and settling as soon as I give her a bottle. We’re still 3 weeks away from her immunizations, and my goal was to make it until then so she has some protection. But I don’t know if it’s possible. She gets frustrated when I try to feed her. I get sad. My anxiety is through the roof. I feel like I’m distracted with pumping etc. and am missing moments. I couldn’t live with myself if she got sick because her immune system wasn’t strong enough. Please help ease my mom guilt...
🙈I can’t with these two!
It’s our 7 year anniversary! 7 years of marriage. 9 years together. 13 years of friendship. 15 years since we first met. After all that time, it’s the last month that’s made me love him more than I ever thought possible.
Noni Maggie Mason is officially a month old. Likes: Looking out windows, baths, peeing as soon as her diaper is off, casually farting, being held (all the time). Dislikes: Not being held, wardrobe changes, tummy time, waiting for her bottle to warm up. Milestones: recently traded baby acne for cradle cap ear, rolled over three times, slept through the night once, went 8 days without pooping
Thankful for this squish and squisher.