As much as I hate to admit it...I've been a nervous wreck since my Dad passed away 2 months ago. Some days are better that I can easily pull a fake smile or laugh. Other days it become too overwhelmed that all I want to do is curl up on my bed and cry. But most of the time I live on a zombie mode. Robotic. I just feel numb. People keep telling me that he's in better place now. I know he probably is but I also can't deny this heartache everytime I think about Dad. I don't know if I ever recovered. I've been binge eating, I gulp all the craps I'm not supposed to eat, I've stopped working out. I've forgotten all the new year resolutions I've posted earlier this year. Even planning a trip doesn't excite me anymore. Usually I couldn't wait to get home from trips so I could share all the interesting stories with Dad. Now my home feels empty without our nearly 24/7 arguments. But I know he will smile when he look at this picture. Mount Fuji is one of our most favourite places in the world that we will never get bored to visit it again and again. Have you ever lost your loved ones? How do you heal a broken heart? Or it will never get healed and my heart get too numb instead that I won't be able to feel anything anymore 💔
Each time a woman stands up for herself, she stands up for all women - Maya Angelou. Happy International Women's Day to you all amazing, fierce and powerful ladies out there. Thank you for being you! Let's work together on #BalanceForBetter world where all women are treated with utmost respect and dignity. It feels so much better to empower and lift each other up, rather than the opposite. Special shout-out for my supermom who's been so broken hearted after my Dad passed away recently. Be strong, Mom! I will be just right here to support you. We'll get through this together 🤗🤗🤗 #IWD2019 #internationalwomensday
New post on www.debbzie.com! I think the word 'magical' is understatement to describe how stunning sunrises and sunsets in Bagan are. Like most visitors who plan to explore Bagan, I too did a little homework - searching where's the best places to watch sunrises and sunsets in Bagan. A lot of information I found on internet are not so accurate anymore since now the officials prohibited the climbing of all pagodas in Bagan. My best bet was asking the locals who showed me some great spots which are not listed on Google map 😁 *to read the story, please click the link on my bio 💕 📷 Fujifilm X-T10, Fujinon XF 18-55mm #fujifilm_id #XT30Team #xt30team_travel
I miss you, Papa. Today is supposed to be the festive day of #ChineseNewYear. I'm supposed to be happy but I shed tears instead. It doesn't feel right without you here. I miss you, Papa. You never said you were leaving. You never said goodbye. You were gone before we knew it. You left before I could realize that I would not be able to see you again. I miss you, Papa. I wish to hear your voice and hold your hand again. I have so much left unsaid. Life gave a massive shock without making me prepared for it. The day you took your last breath was the day my world went dark. I miss you, Papa. It's been two weeks since you have gone and I cry myself to sleep every night. There's a question that keeps lingering in my mind. You have always taken me with you to everywhere you go since I was born. But why don't you take me this time? It's hard to think you have to walk this eternal journey all alone. I miss you, Papa. Remembering you is easy. But missing you is the heartache. Will I meet you in my dream tonight? I miss you, Papa. I really do...
#throwbacktuesday Found this pic in my archive that was shot candidly by @pojiegraphy while I was buying sulphur rock from the miner. Mount Ijen was definitely the highlight of my #tripofwonders with @indtravel. The hike up was challenging but I was happy to finally tick off one of my bucket list. #WonderfulIndonesia Besides the phenomenal blue fire, splendid scenery and the mystical crater lake, another thing that intrigues me a lot about mount Ijen is the mind-boggling story of sulphur miners. Everyday they hike up to the rim of Mount Ijen crater to harvest then climb down the mountain carrying wooden baskets full of sulphur blocks up to 80 kgs or even 100 kgs on their shoulder. It is indeed a tough job yet they earn very little (only about 8 U.S. cents per kilo of sulphur). Some of the miners sell sulphuric art as souvenir. However you are not allowed to bring it on board the plane since it's considered as prohibited items. I bought a couple of these and the airport authorities asked me to remove it from my luggage 😭😭😭
A road trip to remember. Somewhere between Sarajevo #bosniaandherzegovina and Zagreb #croatia, summer 2013 💕
Sunflower season in #KhaoYai starts from November until late January. On my recent trip to Thailand, I visited Rai Maneesorn sunflower field in Mu Si, Pak Chong district (about 3 hours drive from Bangkok). The bright yellow flowers covering more than 1 million square meter of the hilly field at Rai Maneesorn. I noticed that the flowerheads in this field are pretty huge. Some of them are even as big as my (chubby) face! 🌻🌻🌻 There are also some stalls selling sunflower seeds, fruit, food and beverages, as well as a small petting zoo. Entrance fee is 80 Baht per person for foreigners. Tips from me: do visit early in the morning or late afternoon to avoid the intense sunlight. I arrived around 10am and could only spent less than an hour because it was too hot I nearly got a heatstroke. Don't forget your hat and sunglasses and lather up a generous amount of sunscreen. 🕶️👒💕
Let's kick off the New Year with a kiss! My 2019 resolution will be to love more...my parents, family, friends, furry kiddos and most importantly to love myself more. I'll try to be back on track on healthier lifestyle and be a happier version of myself. I'll try to ignore those toxic people who from time to time would drain my energy. I know it's easier to say than done but I'll fight a good fight. One thing I came to realize from my last year's resolution, it actually feels good to slow down. My whole life I've always celebrated Christmas & New Year somewhere far away from home. Now is the second year I spent the New Year Eve at home in my comfy pajamas, munching dark chocolate cakes while watching the countdown on telly surrounded by kiddos @leksonos ...and it feels pretty awesome. I guess after nearly 40 years of non-stop travelling, I'm now in a phase where I can appreciate more my time at home. Though honestly it feels a bit weird in the beginning, coz I'm so used to always on the move since I was born. But hey! Life is full of changes and surprises, right? Let's just embrace it... Last but not least, wishing you beautiful moments, treasured memories, and all the blessings a heart can know. Happy New Year #2019!
#2018bestnine 1. Kulusuk island in Greenland 2. Zagreb Cathedral of the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary 3. Opened up about the silent depression I've been battling 4. Shirakawa-go in Japan 5. Malang Flower Carnival 6. Hsinbyume Pagoda in Mingun, Myanmar 7. Temple Street Market in Hong Kong 8. Iyashino-Sato Nenba in Japan 9. The Avenue des Champs-Élysées in Paris, France. 2018 is the year I learned to slow down and enjoying the moments more. Earlier this year I made a resolution to cut down significantly my time on gadget and quite happy with the outcome. I went out more often with family, cousins and met new friends. Joined dance classes and have a blast. I've been spending more times too with my adopted kids @leksonos . I don't even travel with my laptop anymore to ensure I enjoy my journey better. How was your 2018? Thanks so much for all the love you've been sharing along my journey. Cheers to the new and awesome year ahead! Let's hope 2019 will be a better year for all of us 😘😘😘