The very sad, very small one in this photo is turning 20 today! Happy birthday, @rebekahspoelman ! I love the vibrant woman you are. I think we all want to be a bit more like you on occasion but...nobody is like Rebekah!
Because I've pretty much been glued to the couch since Friday's mandate to rest... let's throw it back to eight years ago when we were newlyweds with our first cat, Amoxicillin. . Both of us feel a great deal of happy nostalgia for our three years living in the farmhouse in Michigan. I think in many ways, it was just an easy stage of life as I finished school, Angel worked at the hospital, and we spent a lot of time together. We've spent more of our marriage overseas than we ever spent in America, and sometimes I feel that it's not fair to my adopted home that so many of the memories I've made here so far are of times that were not as easy for me. . Growing a family is just maybe not an easy season of life. Losing our first baby after the long wait for her hit me hard, and I admit that experience has affected me in both my pregnancy with Cyrus and in this one so far. Even Cyrus, my rainbow, my miracle... I spent months throwing up many times a day, refusing to go anywhere in cars due to motion sickness, had complications from childbirth and I was too weak to hold my 7 lb. baby for nearly two weeks. Nursing was so hard that I would have given up if I wasn't afraid we wouldn't be able to buy him enough milk. Paying for his birth and the medical care we both needed while Angel was working a very low paying job meant that at times last year I avoided eating as often as possible in order to make ends meet. Praise be to the One who knows our needs--in August Angel got a new job that meets our needs (and even has insurance covering prenatal care!). I perhaps naively thought that my body would handle this next pregnancy better... don't we get better at something the more times we've done it? And now I wait and pray for another miracle, that this little one will keep growing, that my body will be strong enough to take care of both the little baby and my big one. The past few years have been physically hard--but the fight for my family has been worth it and God has always been faithful. Thank you to so many friends who are praying with us right now!
The last week has been really hard. I was 99% sure that the little one I found out about on March 12 was gone. I was already grieving by the time we saw the doctor yesterday, only to see a baby on the ultrasound, a baby that had grown quite a bit since we first saw baby two weeks before. A baby with a heartbeat!! . Angel and I were in shock. The doctor says that, because of my symptoms, it's considered a threatened miscarriage at this point. Before, I would have been terrified by those words, but seeing the miracle of an 8+ weeks baby with a heartbeat after you were pretty sure that all chances were gone...that's incredible. It's still scary. In the doctor's words, it's between baby and God right now, how this turns out. Next appointment is in a month. I don't know the end of the story. But today I'm celebrating that heartbeat, I'm celebrating that Cyrus's baby brother or sister is still with us today. . #dueinnovember #8weekspregnant #pregnancyannouncement
Someday, I'll be a better mom, and I will have a more grown-up and responsible reaction when my child happily does snow-angels on the floor of Ikea...but yesterday was not that day. Yesterday, I laughed way too hard and recorded video (swipe for the video). Granted, Ikea was deserted, there was nobody within sight, so at least I was sure he wasn't annoying anybody...but I think swimming around on warehouse floors is not really within the guidelines... . . . #ikea #ikeamalaysia #springbreakadventures #motherhoodintheraw #authenticmotherhood #letthembelittle #littleandbrave #littlefierceones #thesincerestoryteller #thatauthenticfeeling #mamamoments #mamatribe #oneyearold #toddlerlife #childhoodunplugged #childhoodeveryday #motherhoodrising #risenmotherhood
Somebody was super excited that Grandpa had a birthday. Or maybe he was just excited about the fire, because he was really disappointed when the candles we're blown out...
Celebrated the first night of Spring Break with a family outing to the park and to market for fried rice (me) and briyani rice (Angel). Cyrus ate all the chicken out of my fried rice, which is fine by me because the veggies are the best part. We're so excited for a week with Angel! This is his first year at a school that has breaks, and man...they are fun! . . . #springbreak #teachingspanish #teacherlife #teachersofinstagram #babyanddaddy #mytinymoments #mymarriageendures #familytime #thatauthenticfeeling #thesincerestoryteller #mamamoments #mamatribe #getoutdoors #adventureisoutthere #littleandbrave #playingoutside
I taught her to read, and here she is taking over storytime with Cyrus when my throat is too hoarse to read aloud. Everybody grows up... . . . #boardbooks #readingtogether #kidsbookstagram #homeschoolfamily #mytinymoments #createcommunity #blogwithheart #readingtokids #learningathome
Look! We're only missing three sisters and the two guys that married in...so that's kinda sorta close to a legit family photo, right? We're going to miss this brother of ours...visits always pass by so quickly! . . . #bigfamilylife #expatfamily #brotherandsisters #threegenerations #sundaystyle #morningslikethese #capturingchildhood #mytinymoments #familytravel #livingabroad #simplejoys #simpleliving #celebratelife #thatauthenticfeeling #thesincerestoryteller #sundaybest #mamastyle #homeschoolfamily
Are you sure you don't need any help lesson planning, Daddy? I'm right here if you need me. You need to make sure that they really understand how to use imperatives before the next test! . . . #daddyandbaby #mytinymoments #momentsofmine #thehappynow #thepursuitofjoy #thatauthenticfeeling #spanishteacher #highschoolteacher #teachersofinstagram #teacherlife🍎 #lessonplanning