Heli-coptered again today over Pitt Lake. It was magic 😍
We all know the best part of baseball as a kid wasn’t the actual game, it was the relay race at the end 😎
These two kids have brought me allllll the emotions of motherhood...frustration, defeat, anger, failure, exhaustion. But also indescribable joy, pride like I never knew before, so much love I might burst, deep belly laughter and happiness. Watching them grow into an 8 and 5 year old has been the best thing ever, and the most challenging! I’m so stinkin proud they’re mine!! . . When I first became a Mom, I thought I’d be just like my Mom. Raising 4 kids seemingly effortlessly, while simultaneously looking beautiful, always staying calm and baking delicious meals and baked goods daily. Nope. It’s not nearly as easy as she made it look. I still don’t know how she did it! I suspect magic. ❤️ . Over the last 8 years of being a Mom, I’ve learned so much from these incredible 10 women. They inspire me, have helped me, been there for me and I love them all so much!! I couldn’t have done it without any of you and I’m so glad you guys are all mine too ❤️ . . Happy Mother’s Day to every single woman who answers to the name of Mom. Whether you birthed them, adopted them, had a surrogate carry them, care for them as yours, are an Aunty close enough to be Mom #2, or a best friend who loves those kids as if they were your own, you’re amazing and deserve every single moment of celebration today!!
Being a part of the fitness industry for the past while has been a bit of a mental struggle and one I’m just beginning to figure out where I stand. . . There is so much focus on looking a certain way. Eat this, don’t eat that. The BLANK diet will do this for you. Lifting weights is the only way to go. Do yoga. Don’t run to lose weight. Walking will never make you stronger. Get sponsored. Post sexy/perfectly posed photos to Instagram along with your discount code. “Nothing tastes better than skinny/strong feels.” And everyone is so damn sure that they’re the ones who are right. . . At the beginning of the year, I stepped back from a training community with a mindset I was struggling with and it’s been such a relief. There sometimes can be such a culture of chasing numbers and having your goals be so heavily focused on results, PRs and beating someone else. It puts constant pressure on “keeping up”, comparing and doing MORE constantly. It’s exhausting and it can wear you down mentally to the point where even when you do your best, it still doesn’t feel good enough. . . Training should never feel like pressure, or stress or an urgent frustration. It shouldn’t feel heavy. And near the end of last year, it had started to feel heavy. I was feeling not enough and being compared, not only by myself but by others. I realized a few weeks ago that its started to feel light. It’s fun again. I love it again. There’s no pressure. It’s an area of my life that relieves stress, that boosts my confidence, and makes my mindset and body image more positive, especially since I added in regular yoga practice. 🧘🏻♀️ . . My new mindset on fitness and training is to be healthy - mentally then physically. To be strong - mentally then physically. And most importantly to practice self awareness and make sure I’m chasing goals because it’s what I want, and it’s what’s best for me, and not because it’s what I’m “supposed” to be doing.
@trishastegenga is a fellow photographer and one of my favourites! I’m pretty sure I creeped out the first time I met her at a photographers Christmas party, as I gushed about how AMAZING her hair is! And then asked her a billion questions about it. But c’mon it’s amazing! Today she married Jarius and Ohmygosh they’re incredible together!! It made me so unbelievably happy to be a part of their day!! ❤️ Wedding season 2018 has officially started!! 🙌🏼
Last weekend I was reminded that our mindset and how we view things has such a huge impact on our perception of events in our lives and our happiness. “Making goals that are defined by a result, leads to disappointment and failure, whereas making effort related goals is attainable.” @benbergeron I’m learning to not worry about the things that are outside of my control. To not tie my self worth and happiness to results, and to instead evaluate myself based on my effort, vulnerability, kindness, intentions and ability to show up and dare greatly. Last weekend I did something so far outside my comfort zone I couldn’t even see my comfort zone anymore. 😂 I was thrilled with my results because going in I didn’t put any focus on my results at all. I let them be what they are. I focused instead on having a positive mindset above everything else and showing up despite a few obstacles and doing my best. In those areas I succeeded and it meant more to me than any placement! 🏋🏻♀️ #heroculture
I did it!! And I didn’t throw up!! 👊🏼 My regular training isn’t even CrossFit, yet some part of my brain decided to sign up for a CrossFit competition! I had only ever done thrusters 3x before in my entire life and they were the MAIN strength workout!! (Mad props to Dave and @prstrengthcoaching for getting me in semi-thruster shape!) I am so proud of how I did!! 4 events in one day and I came in 11th out of 40 incredible athletes!! I placed 1st in the row, and I beat my at home trial scores/times for every single event!! I couldn’t have asked for anything better!!! I got to cheer on friends, new and old! @narbooza @jaesin7711 @mattkennedyphotos @mamatench 🙌🏼 I had the most motivating and uplifting judge ever! I wish I remembered his name 🤦🏻♀️ The BEST support group ever came to cheer me on 😍@mrusso86 and my amazing kids! @jessicayarwood @fresh.prins @dhprins @cocaholla @mimster29 and @mdagenais60 ❤️ Thank you so much for coming and cheering!!! It meant so much to me!! And for everyone asking, I don’t think I’ll ever compete individually again. I had so much fun and am so proud of myself for doing it but I don’t wanna do that level of anxiety the week leading up ever again 😂 I was a basket case!! I could be convinced to do team though.... 😉
I was meaning to post something along the lines of “Yay! I compete in 8 days!!” But the slight panic has set in and my brain yesterday was cycling through every little thing that could go wrong, so then I would try to picture myself doing well but then I don’t want to do that in case I don’t do well because I don’t want to end up disappointed. So I emailed Dave (my @prstrengthcoaching partner!) and asked for advice. He reminded me to stick with the thoughts that get me on the path to success, fun and self affirmation. To break the circle of worry and anxiety my brain is running in!! I started to calm down, and am trying to focus on the fun! And on my belief that you should try everything once! This will be my one and only competition 😂, I signed up to try it once and to be able to say I’ve competed in CrossFit! And when I was telling one of my best friends about it last night (who is one of the best athletes I know, but isn’t familiar with the layout of CrossFit) she said “oh it’s like a tournament!” And that seriously calmed me right down!! It IS like a tournament and those aren’t scary at all! I’ve played in tournaments my entire life and LOVED them!! So bring on April 21!! My first Fitness tournament 😁🙌🏼