• Be foolishly in love, because love is all there is. - Rumi • • • • • Congratulations to Rachel and Ian, the new Mr. & Mrs. Irish! ☘️🍀#happilyeverirish
• You are my today and all of my tomorrows •
Last year, this photo was taken during a styled shoot at an amazing conference I attended, @showit.co's United. I am beyond thrilled to be going again this year- but with one big change. Last year, I threw myself out of my comfort zone and went alone, not knowing anyone. I was welcomed with hugs and made awesome new friends as well as got to actually meet and talk to amazing industry leaders @jasminestar, @amy_demos @jbenhartley and many, many more. The big change this year? I have @schragephotography to cause trouble with me. The powers of Facebook and @startplanner brought us together, as we had mostly just met in passing last year. Now? Leigh is my internet best friend, she and I talk every single day, from this is my to do list to I just need someone to rant to, and I could not be more thrilled that she and I get to *actually* hang out in 4 1/2 weeks. Anyone else have an internet best friend? Have the powers of social media brought you together? I want to hear about it! ****** Also, this gown, those smiles... all the heart melting feelings. I just love people in love.
I know so many people look at me and see how positive I am about my body, how I wear itty bitty bikinis and short dresses, low cut tops... all the things they tell curvy girls not to wear. I was taunted for my weight for such a long time. For my big butt, for shorts and jeans not sitting right because nothing was made for my curves. By some family members telling me that losing weight would make me happier, would just make me perfect if I was ten pounds less. I struggled with an eating disorder for a very short time, because y'all I just love food too much. When I was in the middle of being diagnosed with a painful disease, my rapid weight loss was such a good thing and you look so great was a constant compliment. When I was having biopsies and a sobbing mess on the floor over cancer scares, I was told how wonderful I looked. It hurt me significantly more to be skinny than it did to be fat. I struggled during my height of my sickness with finally fitting into jeans that I never thought I would wear again, tops that were showy and cute, and not feeling like I needed to cover my arms. And when my health started to return, when I could manage a meal without throwing up and I started gaining weight again, I cried my eyes out when those jeans no longer fit. This morning I stood in front of my little short mirror in my bathroom in my undies after getting home from my workout and told myself, damn your ass looks great. I think my boobs are starting to look saggy as I'm getting close to thirty, and I CONSTANTLY still place my hands over my stomach to push it in and see what it would look like if it was flat. It probably won't ever be. But I still have fear. I will try on clothes and send a thousand selfies to the people in my inner circle to ask them if it looks okay. I put on five outfits before I go to dinner with people who used to make fun of my weight. I search for their validation, even though I do not need it, all because of fear. I am not perfect: I'm flawed, in many ways. But I am confident, I am curvy, and I know how to make others comfortable with themselves. My biggest strength is my stubbornness. They WILL like me, *cont in comments*
So, this is me, doing one of the things I do best: drinking coffee. It's Friday, and it's been a little minute since I introduced myself, or did #fridayintroductions but it's kinda fun when y'all get to know me a little better than just the girl with the big ass cameras. One of the first things people notice about me is either my half shaved head (done on a whim a little more than a year ago, best decision ever) or my six huge anchor tattoos on my forearms (you can see three of them here, designed and expertly done by @babybuttz at @renotattooco)! My six anchors are for the six ships that I've lived and worked on! Four for Norwegian Cruise Lines as a private studio photographer: ⚓️Norwegian Pearl ⚓️Norwegian Gem ⚓️Norwegian Jewel ⚓️Norwegian Sun One is from working for @semesteratsea on the ⚓️MV Explorer And last (though actually the first ship I ever was on) but definitely not least, the ⚓️FV Wizard from a little show y'all may have watched called The Deadliest Catch on @discoverychannel! People ask me all the time if I am going to return to ships, and the answer is no, but I miss them an incredible amount. I met some of the most amazing humans ever, had the best experiences around the world and traveled for two straight years. Ship life gave me the courage to open my own business, gave me wonderful friends all over the world and really, truly changed my life. • • • Photo by the gorgeous @melissa.vargas.photo at the amazing @mclernonandco event at @westelmreno while drinking deliciousness from @verticalcoffeeroasters out of a cute cup from @camelotpartyrentals and resisting all the temptations to eat the @roundsbakeryreno donut on top. Additional awesomeness provided by @confectioncookies @prettylittlepaperco @boxoflovereno & @rawbry
So, here's the thing. I totally suck at this social media thing. There are the best times to post, creating genuine interaction with your potential clients, using the right hashtags.... and I really, 99% of the time don't give a damn. I don't care how popular I am on Instagram, though it seems to be a requirement for many things today. I have always, and will always use Instagram to share photos, to showcase love, to speak my mind through images. I'm bad at having perfect layflats, I'm bad at curating my feed. I'm bad at all of those things, but that's fine because what I'm good at is bearing witness to moments that get easily passed by in the chaos of a wedding day, making couples laugh and speak words and truths to one another that they know, but might not hear. I'm great at showing women how beautiful they are and making them feel more confident in their own body.... and I'm not great at Instagram. #sorrynotsorry Photo taken at an event where I was maybe supposed to get better at the insta thing, and instead drank coffee and socialized. Hosted by the fab @mclernonandco at @westelmreno featuring the amazingness of @confectioncookies @roundsbakeryreno @verticalcoffeeroasters @prettylittlepaperco @rawbry @camelotpartyrentals and @boxoflovereno.... and of course my fave and fab Batman lens on my workhorse/baby, the 5D Mark II. #keepsocialmediasocial • • • • • #laketahoephotographer #laketahoeweddingphotographer #renophotographer #renoweddingphotographer #californiaphotographer #californiaweddingphotographer #northerncalifornia #laketahoewedding #weddinginspo #destinationweddingphotographer #destination #makeportrait #someplace #SMPShareYourStory #chasinglight #justgoshoot #makemoments #everydayIBT #huffpostido #livethelittlethings #thatsdarling #nevadaweddingphotographer #donuts #canonusa #batman
Straight off camera. Straight magic with my gorgeous, amazing Lex in Denver on Sunday evening. More coming soon as Glamour Sessions are being added to my menu!
Photographing a wedding as a bridesmaid is such an experience. I don't know how I got lucky enough to have friends that trust me with both of those important roles, but I'm thankful for them. This past weekend, Heather and Maksym's wedding gave me all the real feels. I cried an incredible amount, I laughed until my cheeks hurt, I twirled around the dance floor in my big tulle dress, and I truly celebrated an incredible marriage of two phenomenal humans. Moments like this make what I do the most joyous job in the world... two people becoming a forever, becoming part of another family and finally marrying the Prince Charming that we all wanted for you. Congrats, Heather and Maks, I love you both! • • • • • #laketahoephotographer #laketahoeweddingphotographer #renophotographer #renoweddingphotographer #californiaphotographer #californiaweddingphotographer #northerncalifornia #laketahoewedding #weddinginspo #destinationweddingphotographer #destination #makeportrait #someplace #SMPShareYourStory #chasinglight #justgoshoot #makemoments #everydayIBT #huffpostido #livethelittlethings #thatsdarling #nevadaweddingphotographer #bridesmaid #firstkiss #ido #brideandgroom #summerwedding