- Ohh Robert Smith, you goth-man of mystery, 80’s mixed tape maven, drippy lullaby crooner, taunting me to sleep as a teen. . My mind wafting about, lingering in some lazy, languid dream place. . Addicted to imagining my soul connecting deeply, longingly with a star-crossed lover- making it impossible to match with my reality. . Until the day I turned the record over and put the needle square on me... . Replacing every outward, intangible yearning - for a delight in my own existence. . my own breath - my body breathing me 17-30,000 times per day. . my 7 octillion atoms. . 86 billion nerve cells joined by 100 trillion connections...more than all the stars in the Milky Way. . blood circulating ~12,000 miles a day. . skeleton renewing itself completely every 10 years. . top layer of skin renewing every 30 days. . eyes distinguishing between 10,000 different colors. . bones 5 times stronger than steel. . lips 100 times more sensitive than my finger tips. . heart beating 35 million times a year..yes, 35 million. . and, the absolute beauty that despite what we know about our human-ness, we may forever be discovering more. . that, dimensions of what it means to be alive will exist in our wordless sensations, felt in the formless frequencies of our etheric body, not remotely quantifiable. . . #MoreThanADream ✨
- more camping, please 🙏🏼 . . #familymedicine
True story. . I’m tired but not depleted - I wrote that in my last post and it might be a lie, but the thing is, I kept telling myself that over and over again the last few days while we sat by Gianni’s bedside perplexed by what was happening to him...and wouldn’t you know it, it kinda feels legit. . It just might be the biggest lie I’ve ever told myself, but where’s the harm in faking it ‘til I make it? . Just the thought of, “I’m not depleted” had me navigating all the ways I fill myself up. . My brain was scanning for what I’ve done right instead of dwelling on how much I was going to suffer later from the stress, heartache, confusion, and sleep deprivation. . I made room for this - I. did. that. . and it wasn’t all easy, it wasn’t all mantras and burning incense (maybe a little)... . It was so much cleaning out of emotional overload, feeling it all, asking for help when I need it, and stretching myself to give more when I thought I was on empty. . All the limits I’ve set, things I’ve said no to, the bizarre things I’ve said a big fat yes to, the risks I’ve taken, and the respite I’ve given myself in between all of the stuff. . It’s being a hot mess and still holding tight to the tender grip of my worthy human-ness. . It’s being in the presence of others unfolding into the gorgeous raw realness of their existence. . It’s the delirious delusion that’s steadily seducing me to accept that life’s amusing and miraculous. . It’s dancing and stirring my flesh and bones into a breathless soup of euphoric abandon. . It’s knowing that I know so little and that’s ok because that means there’s still so much to discover. . And, if I know I know so little, it’s possible I’m lying to myself about feeling filled up, and I can live with that. . My beautiful boy is healing from his mystery illness, our refrigerator is full with generous food to fill our belly’s from friends and family, I’m in AWE of the care of so many that surrounded Gianni with prayers, the best of their medical acumen, willingness to excuse him from a ballgame or class quiz, and these body’s we travel in that are really still such enigmas. . Thanks for all of it 💙 .
- Too long ago Tuesday, 2009. . First of all, I’ve had way too much time on my hands sitting at the ER the past two days - too little sleep to do anything requiring much of my thinking brain - and a very full heart. . Gianni was sick with a nasty little bug last week, better in time to go to school on Friday and a baseball game on Saturday- and then wHaMo, Sunday night he got hit with a wildly bizarre symptom profile that landed us in the ER sleuthing out the mysterious code red pain in his head. . I’m so tired I could drop my phone mid sentence as I write this - but I don’t feel depleted and G’s in tremendous pain but he sees a way out. . His doctor called him a, “remarkable young man.” . My heart leaped. . I feel so grateful I spent the weekend in the redwoods of the Santa Cruz mountains filling me up mind, body, and soul ( @thealtfeminine ). In the past, I would’ve felt guilty taking that time to recharge away from the kids. And today, I embrace it with my whole self and - my whole family really gets how important it is for me to deep dive into these moments. I return with SO much more presence and openness to all the messiness, appreciating all the goodness, and all the everyday gorgeous ordinariness. . My little guy is so big - I wanted so bad to carry him, hold him like I did in this picture, but his 11 year old feet are even bigger than he was then. We have a new way now, it’s different - requiring both of us to adjust some - and also, it’s so clear we’re in this big beautiful life together 💙 . . #thisisgrowingup
~ bring it. . . #wholehealth
- mmmmmm, pollen 🐝🌼 . . Bees use their teensy legs to knoodle golden, dusty pollen from fertile blossoms. . #beesknees ✨ . All bees that collect pollen are female. . And, well, pollen is the male seed of flowers, produced in the anther of the flower’s stamen. . After the pollen is shaken loose by the bees, they use special comb like areas on their legs to scoop the pollen into storage areas on their body - destined for the hive. . Bee pollen is a superfood because it’s actually a complete food. . It contains everything that humans need to survive: . Bee pollen is about 25% carbohydrate, 20% protein, 4.5% fats - the rest is pigments, minerals, vitamins, water, and it’s high in trace minerals such as copper. . Pollen is high in B vitamins - showing promise for energy and stress. . It’s also very high in bio-flavonoids and antioxidants - possibly explaining the positive effect on allergies. . And, a wildly interesting tidbit, there’re actually trace elements found in bee pollen that have yet to be identified through the marvels of modern science. Many researchers believe this may account for the many health benefits of bee pollen that occur without a known mechanism of action. . Gotta love a little mystery 💛 . #springfever
- really amazing spit bubble brought to you by artist Julia Randall. . come on, how many of you did this regularly as a kid?🤸🏻♀️ . How many of you just tried to do it now?👀 . Did you know... . Saliva carries food to the taste buds and is a critical ingredient in identifying taste. . Without saliva food could not be digested and you wouldn’t be able to wash away food remnants in the mouth or on teeth. Saliva is mostly water but also contains enzymes and so it softens the food, making it possible to swallow as well as begin the metabolism process. . You could potentially produce enough saliva to fill TWO bathtubs a year! . Saliva contains antibodies that fight germs and helps wounds in the mouth heal faster than wounds in other parts of the body. . Your body’s fight or flight response is designed to give you energy and strength in order to survive - so if you’re on a hike and suddenly you walk into a swarm of mosquitoes, it’s not really a good time to eat or digest. In response your body will reduce saliva production - which slows digestion. Prolonged periods of stress are associated with a list a mile long of health disparities. . A substance in saliva, called opiorphin, is thought to be a pain killer up to SIX times stronger than morphine. It seems to work by inhibiting pain. . A 10 second kiss involves the transfer of some 80 million bacteria. . . Just a few brain candy nuggets to chew on. . Also, one of these days I just might complete my blog on taste . Stay tuned 👅 . #spit
- I’m sitting here fiddling (flailing?) around with my audio editing app, putting one foot in front of the other as I progress towards launching my Podcast someday...and this little treasure catches my eye. It brought up a swell of feelings that the man who wrote it inspired. . The American Fact*ionary was written by my father-in-law, Sy (Sylvester) Testa. . During the Vietnam War he spent 3 1/2 years in the Navy as a Public Informations Officer (journalist), literally traversing the 7 seas. . His passion for words and the rules of the English language were passed down to his 3 sons throughout their lives, collecting kitschy things along the way that ultimately became this book. . The Great American Novel. . It’s a SUPER fun book, full of “aha” moments, one that were it not for the timing of the publication - 2006, during an age of rapid speed information exchange through the web - I’m certain would’ve been more widely received. . He wasn’t fond of my use of run on sentences or elipses... he thought it was a lazy way out, though he only told me so in his affable Oklahoma drawl. . He passed over at the end of February this year. . On the morning my husband, Mike, got the news to hurry to his dad’s bedside before his last breath, American Pie popped up randomly out of thousands of songs on his playlist 🎵But February made me shiver... Singin’ this’ll be the day that I die🎵 . Of course Sy’s last words, that Mike had heard countless times throughout his life, would suddenly take on a new meaning and awaken a Vibrancy in them, changing them forever. . I included a link to his book in my bio where you can purchase one for yourself 👉🏼 in case I’ve piqued your curiosity, or if you’d just like to honor his memory. . #💙
- This delightfully fun toadstool was hand embroidered by the marvelous @township31. . She creates and teaches others how to transform mental visions into works or art through the ancient craft of needle and thread alchemy. . I entered a contest through her Instagram and won this SUPER special treasure. . As a kid, I wasn’t so into mushrooms - they had a weird taste and that texture gave me the eebee geebees. . Today, my life has been enhanced immeasurably by all this fungusamongus. . Here’s just a taste of the extraordinary healing and whole health promoting potentials of mushrooms: . 🌱Mushrooms contain some of the most potent natural medicines on the planet. Of the 140,000 species of mushroom-forming fungi, science is familiar with only 10. 🌱Mushrooms are a SUPERFOOD - containing many whole health essentials such as protein, they’re packed FULL of B vitamins, Potassium (more than bananas!), Selenium 🌱About 100 species of mushrooms are being studied for their health-promoting benefits. Of those hundred, about a half dozen really stand out for their ability to deliver a tremendous boost to your immune system. 🌱Eat ONLY organically grown mushrooms because they absorb and concentrate whatever they grow in — good OR bad. This is what gives mushrooms their potency. Mushrooms are known to concentrate heavy metals, as well as air and water pollutants, so healthy growing conditions is a critical factor. They are useful to eat if you’ve ingested toxins, such as after the Fukashima meltdown - they will attach to the toxins and move them OUT OF YOUR BODY! 🌱We’re actually more closely related to fungi than we are to any other kingdom, as we share the same pathogens, meaning bacteria and viruses. 🌱As a defense against bacterial invasion, fungi have developed strong antibiotics, which also happen to be effective for us humans. Penicillin, streptomycin, and tetracycline all come from fungal extracts. 🌱 mproved immune system function... more in comments...
- I’m not gonna lie, I’m spent...and I’m not asleep on an airplane in this picture but actually taking a selfie, somewhere in between asleep and, not. . I’m in Texas to do my best to celebrate the life and grieve the loss of my father-in-law - neither easy for this big hearted woman - and also, so grateful to be in this body, with all these feelings, and feel it all. . But yowzas, so many activities leading up to this that have been joy filled combined with serious elbow greased, life unit expending, and old fashioned pulling up my boot straps have landed me on this airplane at 6 am feeling like I am the Queen of something because I have 4 hours to just neural integrate and be. . Wow. Life. . Respect. . #x
- I couldn’t help myself... . #tastebuds 🥰 . . Still plugging away on my next blog about the natural pleasures of taste #❤️ . Artist: @pilihp
When you rinse, chop, broil, season the yummiest, mouth watering, aromatic deliciousness and someone reaches over with their fork. . #touchamyfoodibreakayourface . . Stay tuned for the next route five blog on the natural pleasures of taste 👅 . . . art: @cosmiccollage