Sworn in! My fella is officially an attorney. SIGH. 😭😂 But really. We’ve been working for the last 6 years to get here. Literally right here 👆, and a weight is off my shoulders now that we’re here. We’ve been on such a life ride, one that bonked and bruised us here and there. It was variable, often unknown, and transient. But we are SO GRATEFUL that we got to ride the ride. SO grateful that we got to go to college + grad school. I can’t help but think of the young guys across the world who are absolutely no different than Ryan — the strategists, the analysts — the young guys that would do anything for the chance to go to school for their growth and their family’s good, and all I know is that where much is given, much is required. We busted our backsides to get here, and we will be busting harder to help others from here on out. Time to pay it forward to our Heavenly Father and love and serve, love and serve. Congrats, my Ry. So grateful, so relieved (😭😂) that we are HERE!
☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️ A five-sun day over here: the girls and I started making the rounds with a bushel of “thank you” bouquets, b/c I was knocked down hard with this little health scare + thus helped a lot to get back up. But I AM UP. 😭🙏 And I mean that crying emoji face, and I mean those grateful, prayerful hands. I’m too tired right now to explain it all (I need to go to bed! I hope to blog up these rollercoaster events this weekend), but this gig has been hard on me. Side-swiping life experiences always are. But two weeks later, I am up. 😭🙏 I have to say “thank you” again here, too, fam + friends. As of tonight, I’m all caught up on every text and DM and call that’s come through in the last two weeks. Y’all haven’t let me be! THANK YOU. 💛 ILY!
Stood up + stayed out for a few minutes today! Bless you, old mobility, and that San Diego sun. ☀️☀️☀️ THANK YOU, each of you, for your love. And your belief and then more love. You don’t realize how much believing for someone helps until you’re the one the belief is for. How you’re helping me get out from under this little mountain already. 💛 The spinal tap/some numbness still has me flattened, but I’ll be up and (high) kicking eventually. Can’t keep this mama down for too long! 💃 XOX
Last week the right side of my body started going numb. First it was my ring finger (why wouldn’t it click the mouse?), then it was my toes. Then my leg, then my arm, then both together. A couple days later my right arm and leg were heavy. Just barely, barely, I was unable to lift my limbs. I told Ryan, I called the doctor. They told me to go the ER. A CT scan later found that an area of my brain was dark. A stroke, a neurological infection, MS — they didn’t know the cause yet but something was (or was not) there. The neurologist performed a lumbar puncture, extracting spinal fluids for testing. Then I was rushed for an MRI. The results? Clean. The MRI was clean. No stroke, and via the first read on the spinal fluid (we are waiting for more results), no virus, no MS. The gray matter could’ve been a shadow. The numbness in my body? As of now, doctors are saying it was neurological side effects of a wicked, “complicated migraine.” I’m also calling it a miracle. Currently I can’t do a lot. But still I CAN: See Smile Control my body. I can taste, breathe, think and speak. I can read to my big girls Kiss my Ryan Snuggle my Emmy to sleep. I can pray, believe, and hope. I can write, so I can share: Life throws curve balls. God helps you catch them. A literal army of angels swooped in and caught me as I fell, then they caught our babies (you angels know who you are). God can’t leave us alone — via our people here, angels up there, and His Son’s love everywhere — “Surely he hath borne our grief, and carried our sorrows...The chastisement of our peace was upon him. And with his stripes we are healed.” | Isaiah 53:4-5 Thanks to our Savior, it’s impossible for God not to be there. He is already, always ALWAYS there! Grateful beyond compare for the life I’ve been blessed to live and to love, and that for a looong long while, I’ll be living and loving still. ❤️
Check ups for all three today, back to back to back to back. The best part was when Olivia tried to make a run for it in the exam room after she saw her sisters get their shots, because she was next (it was serious flight > fight and kind of amazing). Next best was that after all three were screeeeeaming bloody murder as we made our way out of the building, they literally stopped crying at the same time outside the doors and said — Olivia: “You know that didn’t hurt that bad.” Claire: “Yeah, it willy didn’t!” Emmy: started laughing Girls, man. 🤷♀️🤷♀️🤷♀️ You bet I got multiple “You’ve got your hands full! 😲” verbal observations from strangers (just the best!), but breaking news, I also got a “Girl you are SLAYING it” from a bonafide San Diego surfer/beach babe. ✌️+💛 CAN WE ALL JUST BE LIKE HER?? 🤩🤩🤩 I’m bent on being like her.✌️+💛
One month down in our new city, hood, and home. Dad loves his job, and the beach is as close to our house as the park, sooo Mom loves her job, too. ✨✨✨ All in all our move has been so sweet. And I️ only say that to say that — to recognize that blessing from a gracious Heavenly Father. I’ve learned that if/when something in life is hard and heavy, He makes another should-be-heavy load miraculously light. One thing may be stressful, but another is seamless. So has been the story with our San Diego move. Sweet Emmy has been a life-rocker baby, making my adjustment to mothering three rough. But our prolonged, cross country move and life transition has been easy. Our home, our friends, the city - adjusting to everything here has been totally, totally easy. And yet — ?!? We’ve moved before, folks, and done the life transition thing before and it’s sooo not easy! Thus despite other life mountains, I can’t help but feel remembered and helped and loved. I haven’t felt a drop of pain from all of this change. So here’s a little invite for you (b/c doing this has helped me so) — when your heavy load starts feeling like too much, look at what He is lifting for you. Scan your life and see it. What should logically be harder to handle right now, but is instead actually easy to bear? God is THERE. Right THERE! That’s where you can feel confidence and feel okay. Focus, focus, focus there. Our new life that fits like an old glove? How I believe that God is right there. 💛
1. Church party: a prince with his princesses, Belle, Rapunzel, Anna, and Mama 👑 2. Ry Guy's work party: photo booth! Always a good time 🙌 3. Halloween Night, post-dinner + pre-trick-or-treat party. It was already dark out + the babes were ready to roll 🍬 SO MANY PARTAYS. Way to be, Halloween 2017!! 👏🎉👻🎃🌚🍭🔮🕸