I got 2 flip flops and a sack of clothes #india #whereitsat #travellight
I’m gettin pretty good at this 🍄 thing [black trumpets+chanterelles, hedgehogs+lilac milkcaps+voluminous milkcaps+Old Man of the Woods+angel wings+cinnabar chanterelles=dinner]
5 years ago for the first and only time in my life I took to the stage with 11 other exquisite musicians to celebrate the birth of my first record. She had been stirring around for many years leading to that moment, forming herself from a lifetime’s collection of feelings, experiences, thoughts, heartbreaks, celebrations, dreams. 5 years later she remains the most profound thing I’ve ever achieved or created, not so much a master’s work, in that I’m aware of her flaws, but maybe rather a testament to my journey, my humanity, my growth- leading up to then and since. 5 years later, the truth is I still struggle with many of the same things I did back then, and in some cases more profoundly so, as the time and scale have increased, as has my awareness and sensitivity. Disconnection, heartache, rapids level emotions, all the symptoms of classic PTSD, pangs of depressive states, anxiety, compulsive and addictive behavior, self doubt and a negative sense of self, inability to sustainably step into a musical life of my dreams, chronic pain throughout my body, alienation from family, lack of a consistent presence of creative and inspiring peers, a general sense of fundamental stuckness as to how to create positive and lasting change. 5 years later I am not who I once was. I am the as of yet unrecognizable chrysalis emerging ever so slowly from a now stifling cocoon. I have an incredible home, the unfailing and constant support from my pops with anything and everything I choose to do (or more lately, not do), an as of yet work in progress relationship with my ma, but one that holds countless keys to my unfolding and reclamation of personal power. I have the time and spaciousness and freedom to feel and express and do the emotional work required to one day truly feel free. I have a multiplying crew of brothers and a structured support system in place vastly beyond any I’ve ever even imagined in my life previously. I have the means to sing and play and carry my heartsong over mountains and seas, to experience distant cultures and foods and ways of being. [continued in comments...]
@thePharmPresents VIDEO PREMIERE!! Last year we hosted our funky soul brotha @robinsontreacher here at the Pharm- it’s taken us this long to get our sht together, but the 1st vid in the series is finally here! Like, Subscribe, Share, Por favor... 😊 🔸 https://youtu.be/9awtwO6B_zc 🔸 [And join us THIS SATURDAY for Sophia Belle!]
Finally found chanterelles!! Mixed in some foraged ramps & asiatic dayflower, some homegrown zucchini + flowers, leeks, amaranth leaves, radish greens & flowers and you got yerself breakfast! The only things out a store were the tofu and the avo. #growityerdamnself
First Gardenia bloom of the year from my Dearma’s little 30 or 40 year old tree. Can’t help but think of her with joy and gratitude every time it sends out another one of its divinely scented creations...