Can I tell you a secret? I scare pretty easily. I'm afraid of physical pain (which is why I do MMA, right, LOL!). But I'm trying really hard not to let fear control me anymore. So, when I was in Saint. Barts I took advantage of the surf lessons on my first morning. It took me 20 minutes to figure out how to paddle without falling off my board. Salt water got into my nose and eyes, I smashed my feet on the rocks, I cut my hand on the coral, and I even broke the leash on the surfboard. But I did it. I tried surfing even though I was scared to do it. I even managed to get on my knees a few times! It felt great! Not only because of the speed, but because I didn't stop. I almost gave up so many times, but I didn't want to be that girl. I didn't want to be the girl who gave up just because it got hard. Honestly, how can I expect to be a strong and successful single mom and business woman if I give up at the slightest resistance. I wanted to surf. I looked forward to it. And I wasn't about to let my stupid fear hold me back from an awesome experience... and I'm not going to let it hold me back in other aspects of my life either. #ordinaryhappilyeverafter #surfsup #screwfear
Let’s go Christmas shopping!!
Can we come to a consensus over which Christmas book to read? #ordinaryhappilyeverafter #family #singlemom
19 year old Courtney thought she was fat. She thought she was ugly. She thought she was stupid. She thought she wasn't worthy of love. I look at 19 year old Courtney and I want to hug her tight. Tell her she's beautiful and strong and crazy smart! I want to tell her she's worth more than she could ever imagine. When I talk to myself today, I say many of the same things. But there is nothing in either of these pictures that say fat, worthless, ugly, stupid, loveless. This body I have is amazing. It has helped create and nurture six children. It has run a marathon. It carries in it a heart that has loved more completely and passionately than I ever thought possible. It holds a brain that, while not always successful, always tries to make the best out of every situation. Yes, the body I have today also has more wrinkles and 40 pounds more than it did 20 years ago. It also has a little more squish and sags a little more. But it is still just as beautiful and strong as it was then... more so, actually. And has WAY more sass! So I'm going to celebrate it and the spirit within and treat her with more love, respect, and care than I have in the past. I'm going to make her a priority. Post on your own page a picture that, when you look back on it, you say, how did I ever think I was fat or ugly?? Tag me and tell me what you would tell that girl today. #ordinaryhappilyeverafter #changeforthebetter #selfportrait
When I was down in Saint Barths, there were soda and beer cans hanging like this everywhere. I couldn't figure it out but I thought it was beautiful. I loved the colors of the different cans up against the weathered beach signs. After a few conversations with my fellow travelers we figured out that they are makeshift ashtrays. Not being a smoker, I wouldn't have recognized it, but I was impressed by the simplicity of it. Like cigarettes and ash, I often have ugly, stinky crap that I need to get rid of. Whether it's emotional baggage, spiritual weariness, or even a few extra pounds, there is always some ugly residue left over from the choices I make. Usually I look for an elaborate solution. Something complex that will help me heal from life's scars. But does it really need to be so complicated? Maybe it's really just as simple as hanging an empty soda can on a sign at the beach. I wonder how often I hold myself back from my full potential because I think the process can't possibly be this easy. I'm going to let things be easy. Letting go of crap can be easy. Moving on can be easy. Forgiveness can be easy. Success can be easy. Love can be easy. Peace can be easy. #ordinaryhappilyeverafter #stbarths #letitbeeasy
I could have sworn my landlord said NO to pets! Well, they do let us have one cat, but definitely no dogs! #ordinaryhappilyeverafter #lovemykids #momlife