When I first found my faith, I never understood when people said they were mad at God or fought with God. Now, much later in my faith journey, I understand that all too well. When you trust someone but don't necessarily understand them all the time, it can be frustrating. Like all good relationships and marriages, you need to learn to fight well. I'm free to argue with God by praying through how I feel, letting Him know why I'm angry or upset and not hold back. But the deal is that I then have to listen. I need to be willing to hear from Him, to seek His word and open my heart to His response. I only have one side of the story and most of the time the very thing I feel frustrated about, He reminds me that through it all, He has been protecting me from less than His best. It's okay to fight with God, we just need to learn to fight well.
Have you chosen your word for 2019 yet? This year I got to choose a word with my fiancé. We chose the word unity and searched for scripture that would speak to us through 2019 as we enter into marriage this summer! “Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” Colossians 3:12-17 NIV
Lately, the task list in front of me is overwhelming me. I’m falling behind, I’m missing deadlines and it seems I’m just “not enough”.⠀ ✖️⠀ It’s essential to do the opposite of what you want to do when this happens... take a step back. And breathe. ⠀ ✖️⠀ We can get tunnel visioned when we think we HAVE to do it all. But you aren’t a machine!⠀ ✖️⠀ You are a human. Created in HIS image. And even God rested after he created everything. ⠀ ✖️⠀ True peace comes from knowing you can’t do it all. True peace comes from knowing you don’t have to do it all. True peace comes from from knowing God is in control.
What are you dreaming about? Is it something that adds value to your life or adds value to the kingdom? 🌸 Consider this - if we set our minds on things above, the desire to “keep up” with our society - getting the latest tech or brand name accessories, etc - seems so insignificant in comparison to the souls that need a touch of God. 💕 What is one thing you are setting your mind on that will impact the kingdom of God? Is it restoring a lost friendships? Getting to know that person that feels left out? Digging deeper into the word so that you can speak truth into others struggles?
I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks.⠀ I know, I know, you hear this a lot and roll your eyes because today, “everyone deals with anxiety”. But more and more I’m getting messages from friends who have misunderstood this struggle in me before and are now experiencing it for themselves. I’ve even received long messages apologizing that they didn’t understand before and now they are in need of grace from those around them. As much as it’s nice to be understood, I wouldn’t wish this struggle upon anyone. ⠀ ❤️⠀ Truth is, I can be doing something so simple as volunteering at church and my body decides to go into complete panic mode. My heart starts racing and won’t calm down. I get dizzy and it’s really hard to breathe. ⠀ 😔⠀ In those moments, I’ve learned to walk away (ideally into a cold, quiet environment), practice controlled breathing, and pray. 9 times out of 10 I can get my attack under control, and return to my daily life. This has happened so many times that commonly people around me don’t even know that I’m having an attack because I have learned how to manage them. ⠀ 🙏🏻⠀ I decided it was time to learn why my body was doing this. At the beginning of this year, I was determined to beat this “Thorn in my flesh”. I’ve learned that a healthier lifestyle (less sugar and more exercise, more water, more sleep, less screen time) helps reduce my attacks tremendously but there is still so much more I need to learn to completely eliminate my anxious thoughts.⠀ 👑⠀ Anxiety can manifest itself in many different ways - from the physical, to the mental and emotional. It can affect relationships and hold you back from social situations. But in all of this, the battle is His. No matter what is holding you back today, we can place it at the cross and say “I’m a slave no more”. But we MUST learn what we can also do tangibly to fight alongside Christ. ⠀ 👑⠀ It’s taken me years and counselling to learn more about these attacks. It’s injured friendships and opportunities. But through it all, God is using the experiences to help others walk through this as well. The battle is His and even though struggle may not go away completely, you can learn how to manage it. ⠀ 💕⠀
It’s pumpkin season! ⠀⠀ 🎃 ⠀⠀ Canadian thanksgiving was two weekends ago (already!) and my Fiancé and I had pumpkin pie x3. One for every family dinner ⠀⠀ 🙊⠀⠀ Today I had to run to catch the train, because you know, sleep is the best... and it took WAY too long to catch my breath and my heart was pumping like mad.⠀ 🏃🏻♀️ ⠀⠀ Anyone else find it extremely difficult to stay in shape once the colder weather hits? I’m headed back to my CrossFit gym tonight after a month off. The first few classes back are painful... until your body remembers how strong it is.⠀⠀ 💪🏻⠀⠀ Anyway, random Tuesday reflections! I hope your coffee is strong and your thoughts are positive today⠀⠀ 🧡
You gave it to God... But you never took your eyes off of it. You said you trust Him, but you keep focusing on the very thing you said you trusted Him with. ✖️ Trust involves patience. Sometimes it means walking away and choosing faith over anxiety or worry. ✖️ Are you digging up what you've already planted in faith? God wants us to trust Him with all our hearts and minds. Ask Him to help you take that step and fully rely on Him. ✖️ He is good. He is loving. He is trustworthy. And His plans are far beyond what you could ask or imagine. ✖️ But first, trust.
s h e l t e r: my place of comfort, of rest, of refuge from the storm.👑⠀ s h i e l d: my protection, my defender, that which is close to me and resists enemies attacks👑