I have been feeling a bit anxious for the last few days. It might be the isolation, or the fact that I have been fixating with projects that are not coming along easily, I might have tried to be too controlling with the outcomes of what I do. Or it might just be that I miss my friends and my family and I would really need a good hug right now. A fair amount of social oxytocin. Or the time spent in front of screens. I don't know. And I have been doing a lot of mindfulness and work on myself. But sometimes that isn't enough. Sometimes what you need is to get on a suspended line and put one foot after the other, without being too rigid, focusing on your breathing without being too distracted by what's around you. One foot after the other, relaxed on your legs but always present and focused on your perceptions. Because if you start focusing too much on other details outside of you, you might just fall. Sometimes you need to get on a suspended line, breathe in, breathe out, put one foot after the other, keep focused while you keep relaxed. Because if that's not what a happy life sounds like, what is?
Looking for sunsets in London is very difficult. Might be a case of looking for something in the wrong place. . 📸 @joannafinata8
I've been ashamed of my body for a long time, hiding it in big sweaters, trying to less skinny, not showing too much of it. The amount of times people have asked me are you eating enough? is way more than the times I've been told I was beautiful. I've been made to think that the way my body looks, my weight, the amount of muscles on my bones, are the most important thing about me. I have been overeating for my whole life trying to put on weight, having always one more portion than I needed, making my belly feel like bursting, feeling sick and exhausted because of it. The repercussions on my mental and physical health have been huge. And I'm still the same. I'm still skinny, no matter how hard I try. It's taken me ages to understand that that is OK. That I don't have to respond to anyone's stereotype. Not my grandma's, not my friends', not my boss', not even some hot guy. And that applies to my body and to the more abstract part of myself. This is what I am and it's OK. This is not to say that we can't change or improve. But it should always be with a light heart. Accepting that, right now, here and now, we are fine as we are. And it should be because we want to, because we want to add something we like to what we already have. Not because we are missing something someone else wants us to be or have. During isolation I have found a renewed attention for my body and I am working out like never before. But it's because it makes me feel good, it's good for my mental health, it makes my body more efficient, it reduces stess and chance of injuries. I'm eating healthy not because I need to look like someone else, but because it makes me feel better. Wanting to change is okay, but only if it's to match your values and not someone else's. And in doing my best to be the best version of myself right now.
Someone said I don't smile enough in my pictures on Instagram, so here's a cheeky one. And after all, I think this has been most serene time of my life. I've had an unprecedented concentration of epiphanies and my wellbeing (physical and mental) has generally and constantly improved. So here's to silver linings. These times have been hard in so many ways, but there are positive sides to this coin. I hope I'll be able to keep this up when all of this is over, and I'm trying to build a routine to make the habit more stable. I have set moments of my day to do mindfulness, I have set days for workout and yoga, and around that, I have a habit of letting my heart tell me what I really want to do in every moment. When the mind is speaking too loudly, I let it calm down, I breathe, and I let my intuition tell me what the next step should be. It's a whole new way of approaching life. Guilt and duty free. I only do what I really feel like I should do. And the benefits to my mental health and general emotional state are so big. And you? What's changed in you since the beginning of isolation? What are your new habits and routines that you'll like to keep up?
My aunt gave my grandma a haircut and she sent me a picture to show me the results. Don't you think she's the most beautiful thing ever? ❤️ Can't wait to be able to go back to Italy and give her the safest hug 😇 . 📸 And haircut by @gloriagloria2373 . #beautifulgrandmas #mygrandmaisbetterthanyours #quarantinelife #italiangrandma #italiangrandmother #nonneitaliane #nonna #nonnabella #lamianonnaèpiubelladellatua #quarantena #vitainquarantena #isolamento
I'm spending half of my isolation days like this in front of a screen giving singing lessons to beautiful people with unique stories and voices. I would have never thought of offering online lessons before the lock down but it's been a great opportunity to connect with old and new students and reach even further afield (shout out to my students in Luxembourg, Venice and Rome!). And this is one of the things that is giving me joy during this weird time. I have to be away from stages and audiences but I do really love being a vocal coach and helping people unlock the beautiful voice they already have within. A lot of singing is about technique, but I'm also realising with every passing day, that the true secret behind a beautiful voice is mainly psychological. Do you really believe you can be a singer? Are you too self conscious about the way you sound? Can you allow yourself to make mistakes? Can you allow yourself to enjoy singing without judging your voice all the time? Once the answers to these questions are the right ones, the real work can start. Who gets to decide what a beautiful voice is? Do you not like your voice only because you don't sound like Beyonce? The beauty of humanity is that we have so many different unique colours. The first thing to do is accept what you have and what you are and work from there, without trying to be someone else. Easier said than done. And I'm still working on that myself whether it's about my voice or my face or my body. But another good thing about this isolation is that it has gifted us with a lot of time to process our own inner demons without being disturbed by the outside world. I think I have learnt a lot about myself in the last 2 months and improved a little bit. How about you? What have you learnt?
This time last year I was shooting the video for my song I Don't Know Why It Happens with @gooutoftune. One of the most exciting videos to shoot for me, which entailed the carrying of a mysterious box + cycling + trains from London to Southend filming every step of the way and ending up on one of the weirdest places I've ever seen. Do YOU know why it happens? . Watch the video here: https://youtu.be/vY94CrGvLTQ There's also an Italian version! (🇮🇹): https://youtu.be/JkkVBm8l5B8 . 📸 By @gooutoftune
I've been battling with myself during this isolation, more than ever probably. Have to's and need to's tried to overcome the want to's and make me feel guilty. And I did for a little bit, but I also learnt to be in touch with myself a bit more and let me listen to what I really wanted in every moment of the present. I rediscovered old pleasures and my surroundings. I listened to the sound of my breath and felt the air in my lungs. I stayed silent and immobile sometimes. And that allowed me to step away from my usual patterns and dive back into my purest core. Still working on it, but I think I've found the right direction. . 📸 By @gooutoftune . #longhair #singersongwriter #singer #dudeswithlonghair #hair #longhairdontcare #longhairmen #menshair #menwithlonghair #guyswithlonghair #wavyhair #Beard #beardedmen #naturallight #gay #follow #followme #photography #photo @masculine_manes @longhairmenpics @longhaireddreams @cabeludosempre #gayswithlonghair @hotdudeswithlonghair @longhairmenfeed #21daysofabundance #daysofabundance #isolation #selfisolation #quarantinelife #sexyjesus
I've been asked: what's your highest intention for your life? I tried answering, but it still took a while to gather my words and thoughts. I have goals, with my music, my love life, my body, my hair, house, possessions, but what's really behind all of this? The biggest intention for your life. What do I want my life to about? I tried to narrow it down to one but I couldn't, and as I explained to myself what I meant, I think that the answer is more complicated than that. And it goes more or less like this. I want to be capable of experiencing love. To accept it, receive it, to give it. I want to learn to be compassionate towards my self and everybody else. I want honesty. Pure honesty between me and the people around me. Vulnerability and acceptance. I want to connect. Intimate, personal, close, meaningful connections, with no barriers. And yes, I also want my music to reach more people, I want to sing on big stages. Because music is what I like doing, of course. But also because I want to put all of the above in my sounds and words and share it with the world and hope I can add a little bit of beauty and joy through it. I think that pretty much sums it up right now. But it's not an easy question is it? What is it for you? What's your highest intention in life? . 📸 By @gooutoftune . #compassion #honesty #love #longhair #blackandwhite #bricks #singersongwriter #singer #dudeswithlonghair #hair #longhairdontcare #longhairmen #menshair #menwithlonghair #guyswithlonghair #wavyhair #Beard #beardedmen #naturallight #gay #follow #followme #photography #photo @masculine_manes @longhairmenpics @longhaireddreams @cabeludosempre #gayswithlonghair #highestintention @hotdudeswithlonghair @longhairmenfeed #21daysofabundance #daysofabundance