as spring begins and creation is waking up with tiny bursts of color and new life, I’m reminded of the same shift of seasons our hearts and minds go through. God has been showing us so many things these days - what it means to walk through adoption in new ways nine years in, how to connect with each of our children in their uniqueness, the importance of disconnecting from tasks and to do lists in order to breathe and reflect, remembering that He sees me in all of it. feeling grateful today, especially for the promise of sunshine and new growth and beauty in the air.
chances are if we’re dressed up, we’re going to a school fundraiser, but I’ll take it. still my favorite sidekick.
my little rainbow girl, punky brewster, irish babe wishes you all a very happy st. patrick’s day! 🌈☘️ #ivahjoyce #thenandnow
it always catches me off guard: those moments that come out of nowhere and suck the breath out of me, suddenly missing her. I was at the craft store grabbing a few things, including the little green foam that you stick fake flowers in. I killed a plant and the pot was too pretty to leave empty. I found what I was looking for and reached in the bin to grab it, and all of a sudden memories came flooding back. standing at her dining room table, arranging pretend flowers in pretty baskets, not thinking about anything else in the whole wide world. always doing fun little projects, making small everyday memories that don’t seem like much at the time, but add up to life and love and relationship. it’s been three years since I said my last goodbye to my grandma. she was something special, got me like nobody else really did, and loved me so well. the heartache of her absence is always there, hidden somewhere below the surface, but it’s surrounded by even more love and joy, filled with tiny lovely memories that carry me through until we meet again someday.
new favorite nap time activity: sitting in the sunlight by the window and soaking up the heat for at least ten minutes, like a cat. did you know vitamin D is crucial for healthy cognitive function? not like i needed an excuse, but that’s a pretty good one. #becausemombrain
sometimes she requests “rock a baby in the top” before laying down, and every single time her eyes flutter closed, and she tries so hard to keep them open. these little moments of lulling her to sleep are quickly waning and I’m soaking up every last one of them. #eloiseglenda #babiesdontkeep
date night. mexican food, margaritas, and molly moon’s. a long walk on a clear Seattle night. then laughing til we cried, and snuggling up in a quiet hotel for a full night’s rest, which as you may guess, doesn’t happen super frequently. it was all perfection, feeling grateful to my mom and aunt for taking over the dance party so we could sneak away ❤️
it’s definitely a second cup of coffee kinda day. I have 19 ladies flying in from all over the country (and Amsterdam!) on Friday for a mini retreat and I’ve gotten as far as food and drinks and treats (obviously). my heart is already full thinking of our time together and they aren’t even here yet❤️ but also, i should probably get a few details in order?
they kind of let me sleep in (Ivah had to give me a flower and ask me 14 questions and use my bathroom) and then brought me breakfast in bed. Frances sat with me and discussed her strong need for a puppy and which of her friends have pets and wanted to know what I’d eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner if i could pick whatever i wanted. basically best way to start a Sunday.