Today I find myself facing the consequences of my own mistakes. I find myself begrudgingly having to admit that I was wrong, that my suffering in these situations is my fault, and that sometimes people also have to uphold their boundaries with me when I cross them. . Everything is a mirror. But will you take the medicine and accompany it with actions that will strengthen it - or will you absorb the medicine and then invest in something that will work against it? The choice is yours. Today I chose to let the medicine work. . . . . Image of @susanheyward - makeup by @shatayabeauty. Shot at @eggstudiosnyc by me. . . . . . . . . . . . . #nycactress #photographerofcolor #photographersofindia #photographersofig #photographersofcolor #femalephotographers #femalephotographerdubai #femalephotographer #internationalphotographers #internationalphotographer #internationalphotography #nycphotographers
Last night I deactivated Facebook. This past year has been one of stripping away excess, saying goodbye to things and habits and people that are unnecessary. Whether it’s my #saturnreturn or just me growing up: it’s starting to feel good to not care whether I’m likeable. It’s starting to feel good to shine in my truth without apology, regardless of who it annoys. I am learning that my efforts to constantly please everyone resulted in the crumbling of my body and mind. No more, I say. The clutter can fuck off, and make space for more of what and who I love. . I move house next week to my first semi permanent home in 4 years. It’s been a long time coming... but I’m finally in a space I’ve been wishing for. Grateful. . . . Photo info/caption: “When you tell @susanheyward you’ll watch #oitnbseason6 but you’ve only watched the first episode...” (Yes, @kubrasait I’m aware that this is not the only Netflix show I still need to watch - I promise I shall once I’ve moved!) I digress. Catch this incredible woman in the new season of Orange is the New Black, and clap with glee when she says “Bitch, I came in here to be nice to you.” I do. . . . . #nycactress #actressheadshots #orangeisthenewblackseason6 #oitnbfamily #oitnbfans
Look at your biggest to-do. The one you've been avoiding and dreading. Instead of beating yourself up and forcing yourself to do it, treat yourself like a child who throws tantrums every time they go to class. Is it that the child is being spoiled, or is there a deeper thing they dread about the class? Is your resistance truly resistance to the thing, or is there a part of this dread you need to listen to? What do you need to cull from your life to make this to-do feel less dreadful? Perhaps it's the to-do itself. Or perhaps it represents something you have outgrown. When we are resistant to change, we don't just hold on to to the good stuff - we hold on to the things that hurt us, too. Sometimes that's easier than the unknown. Image of one of my favourites: @thogi_ke . . . #kenyan #thogi #kenyanmodel #africa #photographerswhotravel #portraitofkenya #shootingtime #shooting📷 #portraiturephotography #studiophotoshoot
So if you’re getting married in the next year or 2/3 I have an extremely exciting package I’m working on that brings me back to my roots of wedding photography.... without me ever photographing your wedding. . I am SO in love with all my packages, every single one of them, and can’t wait to tell you more publicly from next week onwards. 😍😍😍 . So much shifting has been occurring in my life. I’ve been living out of a suitcase for the better part of the last 4 years... I’m finally moving next week. My packages are everything I’ve ever dreamed of. My clients are quite literally the best people I’ve ever met. . Gratitude does not cover what I feel right now. Love does.
Today I spent over 20 hours finishing a love letter for my website. . Will you do me the honour of reading it? . Link in bio.