Motherhood is a tough gig. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Over the past few weeks, I've started my transition back to work after a year of maternity leave. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The transition has been way harder than I expected. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ For the past 378 days, I've spent almost every waking minute (and, let’s face it, most of the sleepy minutes too 😆😴) caring for a tiny human - making sure her needs are met before my own. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I have mixed feelings about going back to work. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I love my job - and my time away has given me so many fresh ideas I can't wait to get started on. But I'm REALLY struggling with the fact I'll be spending a little less time with her. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Just thinking about it now feels like a flying, double dropkick to the stomach. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I didn't expect it to be like this. Before she was born, I thought I'd be back at work after a few months: ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I'll need something to do, I said. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Oh, how we laugh about this now 😂 - because we ALL know how much time we have on our hands after giving birth. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Anyway, today was my first full day away from her. And, apart from the rock solid boobs, it hasn't been as bad as I feared. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I even got to enjoy a quiet walk through the park at lunchtime, without having to bribe a one year old with snacks. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I'm not sure what the point of this post is. But I wanted to acknowledge the milestone and let any other mums struggling with this transition know: ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ You're not alone. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ We've got this. 👊🏼
This little sausage is three months old today! I took this photo on our first morning together, and looking at it takes me right back to that moment. Pure joy - knowing I’d created this perfect, tiny human. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The past three months have been some of the hardest, but I wouldn’t change them for the world. I love you, Bella Alice. I can’t imagine what life was ever like without you. 💜
Bump, brews and birth planning.
One of my favourite moments from our wedding - reading the vows we wrote for each other. ❤️ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ “I believe in you, the person you will grow to be, and the people we will be together.” ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #BestDayEver