Coen had so much fun on his first Assateague Island camping trip - he loved camping on the beach with the wild ponies. He is the fourth generation to camp on the island each year and it's such a fun tradition. It's in his blood. #coenrobertbaker #coenbakertravels #bakerstravel
This is a Starbucks cake pop - it will make sense in a minute // Before Coen was born I heard all about mommy wars and how awful and judge-y moms are to each other. Then I had a baby and found the exact opposite. I have felt welcomed into the fold with meals and play dates and hugs. When I reach out I find helpful advice and no judgement. When I speak about my motherhood experience I hear : been there huzzah you've got this and the most powerful? me too // I posted about my struggles with Coen's sleep yesterday and I couldn't believe 20 women took time to respond to me in a matter of hours - comments, texts, and yes one even sent me a Starbucks gift card which I promptly used to buy myself this cake pop. Ha. When I had a baby I didn't know I would be entering a club, but I see moms on the street now and I feel connected to them. Like I already know so much about them because of this shared experience of motherhood. It's been such an unexpected and beautiful addition to becoming a mother. I feel honored to be a part of this mom community. Thank you.
The past few weeks with this little man and sleep have been hard. He had never been an easy sleeper, but hitting four months old really exasperated our fragile little sleep routine. I have read all the books, blogs, & forums. My thoughts have been consumed day and night with whether or not he was too stimulated before I laid him down or not stimulated enough. I have stressed day in and out about his 'sleep environment' and whether or not he is overtired. I've agonized over whether or not to get out of his way and let him soothe himself before picking him up or whether letting him cry will scar him for life. I have felt a level of exhaustion I couldn't have imagined five months ago and felt the same level of Mom guilt over not knowing what to do. I have cried with him when he's sobbing more times then I'd like to admit. I've prayed for more wisdom and more patience because I just don't seem to have enough. Just when I feel like I am failing, he quietly goes to sleep in his crib all on his own and wakes up with a smile on his face. He fell asleep so soundly on my chest yesterday and I just held him. His snuggles are like a balm for my tired, mama soul. Buddy, I have no idea what I am doing, but I am doing my best. We will figure this out together. #coenrobertbaker
Strawberry Picking with friends for Mother's Day. Coen was much more interested in looking at the berries than the camera 🍓#coenrobertbaker
This photo has taken on a whole new meaning to me this year. (And yes,I know, I look like my mom!) This was taken after hours of labor and an emergency c-section - not to mention all the hours she spent caring for me in the middle of the night and the months she carried me in pregnancy. I am so blessed to have this incredible woman as my mother. She created a home where we always felt not only loved, heard, and safe - but joy and creativity and laugher. I hope I can create the same atmosphere and bond with my son. It has been such a joy watching you become a Nana - Coen is so lucky to have you! I love you Mom! @coeleen
I will cherish the days when you look at me like that, when I am your world, because I know they won't last forever. These last few months of being your mama have been the hardest thing I have ever done, but also the sweetest. My love for you is fierce, it is heart-melting and often overwhelms me. I am different now then I was before I held you and every day you are making me a better version of myself. Thank you for making me a Mother, Coen. #coenrobertbaker