#blackouttuesday #imnotblackbutiseeyou #imnotblackbutistandwithyou
I have remained quiet over the years when racial issues came up because I felt like I had no right to be outraged because I’m a white woman who has never experienced what it’s like to be a POC. To all of my friends, I am sorry. I was too afraid of saying the wrong thing, of making your injustices and tragedies about me and my feelings. You deserve better. It’s not that I didn’t notice. It’s not that I didn’t clinch my teeth, squeeze my hands into fists, and cry over your losses. Clearly, standing out of the fight has done nothing. I don’t know how to help you, but I won’t just stand by anymore. I vow to teach my children to treat your children better. I promise that when my children ask me about race, we will discuss culture and that the color of your skin is simply a difference of melanin - not a difference in value or character. #ibackthebluebutidontbackhim #justiceforall #nofreedomtillwereequal
Follow up to yesterday’s post: ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ For the past few years, I refused to post any behind the scenes pictures from my sessions and weddings. How ridiculous is that? I didn’t realize just how much my weight impacted every part of my life until it stopped controlling me. 🙌🏻 non-scale victories mean everything. Thanks for the BTS @amberstephensnhjb
I spent so much time thinking that it was selfish of me to want to be smaller. It wasn’t until I saw photos of myself at my heaviest that I realized it was selfish to not want more for myself. When I saw this photo and a handful of others from the same time, I had a breakdown that turned into a breakthrough. I was terrified that if I didn’t make some major changes, I wouldn’t be around to see my girls graduate high school, get married, or have kids of their own so I decided to start. I didn’t get back in the gym 6 days a week and perfect my diet overnight and if I’m being perfectly honest, I’ll probably never have the perfect nutrition plan or perfect fitness routine, but I started making the changes because my babies deserve more time with me. Because they deserve a mom who is happy. They deserve a mom who is physically able to play with them. They were my inspiration and I was perfectly fine doing this all for them but once I started, it became for me. I stopped being a slave to my cravings (indulgence is important to stay on track, but being controlled by food is not okay). I stopped hiding from people I knew in public. I started feeling better about myself. I got a handle on my anxiety. I felt strong and empowered. I had 3 major non-scale victories this past week and I feel amazing. Have I hit my goal weight yet? No. And honestly, I couldn’t care less if I ever do. Do I have the aesthetic I want? Not quite but I’m a hell of a lot closer than when I started. Do I feel good, healthy, balanced, stable, and empowered? Absolutely.
One of the best parts of shooting weddings for me comes after the wedding. I 100% believe that if you leave the wedding and you’re not friends with your couple, you’re doing something wrong. Your branding doesn’t speak to your ideal client or you’re partnering with people who don’t share your values. When you build a relationship beyond photographer and client with those who hire you, you’ll be asked to capture all of their milestones. Remember, marriage is just the beginning of their story together. Don’t forget about them when they’re no longer bride and groom. #nmpcouples #nikkimartinphoto #Atlantaweddingphotographer #atlantanewbornphotographer #atlantalifephotographer