One of the best pieces of advice my counselor ever gave me was that it was okay to feel two different emotions at the same time. I think of that advice often, especially on Father’s Day. There will never be a Father’s Day where I don’t think about my dad, and wish I could hear his contagious laughter and see him snuggling my sweet kids. But there will also never be a Father’s Day where I don’t think about how incredibly lucky we are to have this man in our lives, serving and leading our family so selflessly. ❤️ So thankful for both of these men and how they have impacted, and continue to impact my life. Happy Fathers Day Babe!! Love you! ❤️❤️
“We now check our smart phones every 4.3 minutes of our waking lives.” 😳😳 Whew!! Let’s just say that I’m incredibly excited to dig my soul and brain into this book. ❤️ I am far from perfect, and I waste plenty of time on my phone just like everyone else...but God has been tugging on my heart in too many ways lately for it to be a coincidence. 🙌🏼 Cant wait to read this!! (thanks to our pastor @timfritson for the recommendation! 👊🏼)
Six weeks before she was born, I had a dream. I dreamt that I had a baby girl. My dad was there, sporting his favorite red St. Louis Cardinals hat, holding her and telling me how beautiful she was. Then he asked me what her name was...and I said, “It’s Zoey”. I remember waking up the next morning, not sure what it meant. After all, my dad had been gone for several months, and we didn’t even know if we were having a boy or a girl. And that name wasn’t at the top of our list. But I kept that dream stored deep in my heart, and a few weeks later, I gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby girl. And we named her ZOEY. ❤️ Today, we celebrated her fifth birthday. And in my heart, I must admit that I also celebrated five years of the best and toughest journey of my life. 🙌🏼 Parenting is no joke...and even though I enjoy these years soooo much better than the non-sleeping baby phase, I still find myself worrying all the time whether I will mess her up or let her down or break her heart. But tonight, as I was rubbing her back and watching her fall asleep, I was reminded that all I really need to do is love her. ❤️ And then wake up the next day and love her again. I am so thankful that God has entrusted me with the incredible honor of being her mom. And so thankful that I get to celebrate another year of her life. Happy birthday my sweet girl! So proud of you and so humbled that I get to be your #1 fan. Forever. ❤️
So...I turned 37 last week. 😳The good news is, I actually thought I was turning 38, so believe me when I say that I gained an extra year and was pretty ecstatic about it. 🙌🏼 Anyway, I ended up getting to have a pretty sweet date day with this cool dude. 👆🏼A few years ago I would have loved to run around the city and go crazy doing 100 different things. But the last few years of my life I have craved all things simple...and slow...and authentic. Getting to actually have a conversation with my husband that wasn’t interrupted by two children crawling up my legs was pretty awesome. But the thing I loved the most was when our lighthearted conversation got a little deeper, and we found ourselves talking about all the choices that we had made to get to this place in our lives. A series of choices on both of our parts, and a sovereign God that turned those choices into our story. I always thought getting older would be hard and scary, but as I sat across from my husband at dinner, I realized that getting older is actually pretty freaking awesome. Because you get to look back and see how the pieces of the puzzle all fit together in the most incredible way, each one significant in its own way. We have had many an ugly time in our marriage, and many a time where we were hanging on by a thread. But by the grace of God, we’ve hung on. There is a quote that I read the other day that said, “God has perfect timing, and it’s highly possible that by not being where you thought you should be, you will end up exactly where you were meant to go.” Some days this life doesn’t look like the life I thought I would have, but that doesn’t matter. It’s the life I was MEANT to have. And I couldn’t be more thankful to be starting the 37th year of it. ❤️
The other night I complained to Brandon about how I wish I could motivate myself to work out more. Tonight I cooked Dill pickle/bacon/grilled cheese...fried in bacon grease. The Lewis Summer Health Program is in full swing. 👊🏼
Spent the weekend visiting some dear friends in OKC. ❤️ Family time, late night ice cream runs, and lots of laughter and fun. Exhausted body but refreshed soul 🙌🏼 love you guys, @tbmillertime!!
It's National Infertility Week...and what a sweet coincidence (because I believe these are God things) that I got to photograph my dear friend Heather, as she anticipates the arrival of her TWO miracle babies!! After multiple losses, she now gets to look forward with JOY...and I couldn't be more excited for her. ❤️ I had the privilege of doing their maternity session at their house, which I looooooved. It was so personal and real, and just felt like the most perfect way to honor this time in their lives. Ryan & Heather, thanks for letting me share your story. Your strength and courage inspire me, and I'm so thankful to get to be a part of your journey. 💕(link in bio!!)
Let’s go ahead and stop pretending like we have it all together, folks. I haven’t cleaned my oven in almost 4 years and I’m pretty proud of it. Because in my mind, that means I’ve spent my time doing something far more beneficial. 👍🏼 But last night, after my babies went to bed, I gave this beauty a little makeover. ❤️ The best part is...I won’t have to do it again until Zoey is 9. 👊🏼